I try to look up to the stars when I feel lost, and I am very lost

Finally Laid to Rest and Please Never Rise Again

I hate that you try to reach out
I've lost count of how many times
You're still with him
So leave me be
Let my soul glow

And it hurts so much to think about you
It hurts to write about us
The universe has a funny way
A way of putting you through
Exactly what you put others through
Everything comes full circle
The beautiful the ugly
I was so captivated by you
I couldn't see who you were

And now you try to come back still
My hearts too scared
To let you back in
But I remember all the good times
You'll always hold a special place
Deep within
I feel you with every beat
Not a feeling of love
Rather a love lost
A friendship lost
A best friend
Day trips to new adventures
Nights spent together
Learning each other's soul
I saw the ugly parts of you
You saw the ugly parts of me
I guess my ugly bits were too much
But I fell in love with every flaw
My first mistake
Falling for you

I thought your flaws were beautiful
I thought your scars were beautiful
I fought so hard for your love
I fought so hard to get over you

I've avoided writing about you for so long
Because I knew it would hurt
To drag up our memories
Don't talk about you to my friends no more
But they keep talkin to me about you
I'm done
I've moved on
But our bond
Won't ever die
But for now
Let's leave everything where it lies
You filled a hole in me
A hole I made myself
A void I thought would never heal
If you knew now the truth is
My heart was never yours
I wanted it to be so badly
But it will always belong to another

You called me crying
Saying you love me
And I had nothing to say
Because my heart is not at home
If it were you would have shattered it
I left it with someone else
Who still hasn't hurt it
They keep it safe
Unknowingly
She is my reason
To keep going

I think you and I though
Are a curse that came too close
A poison that almost took hold
Our false love is at a close