Fix my broken heart

Chapter 17

"How's mum?" I asked Ariana quietly. Mum is sleeping on the hospital bed looking all peaceful but her skin is pale. I drove here to Chicago exactly after dad let me come here and after he said that he'll be here during the weekends.

Ariana let out a sob, "Its just a breast cancer Adri. She's showing signs for a lung cancer." she said, her voice is hoarse from all the crying. "I'm scared Ad. I'm scared she'll leave us." She whispered and a single tear escape her eyes.

I sigh and sit beside her, "Look at it this way, if she leave. She leave to a better place and she won't have to suffer all this shit anymore." I try to get her feeling better but only to make her cry even more.

Well done Adriana. You just make your sister an emotional wreck now. A voice snapped in my head making me internally groaned.

After few hours of just staring at mum sleeping form, according to the doctor she might take a lot of hours catching up on her sleep. But seeing mum on the bed, looking peaceful and cold scares me. What if one day she did leave us? Who will be there for me when I'm in need of some grownup talks? Ariana won't be able for that cause even when we're twin, she has a child mind.

I rest my elbow on my knees and cover my face with my hand trying to not cry. I can't cry. I promise Mum and Ariana that I won't cry. I promise myself that I wouldn't show any sign of weakness. Not even when there's no one around, I tried not to.

"How is she?" I heard Diana asked.

I look up surprise to see her here. She smile at me, "I decide to come here to look after you and your sister. I hope you don't mind." she said softly.

My eyes soften a little before I blink and its back to cold and hard self. I shook my head, "That's fine." I said rather a bit rudely. I curse myself and got up and excuse myself before heading down the hallway to the ladies bathroom and into the stall.

I put the lid of the toilet seat down and sit on it. Finally letting my guard down. Tears ran down my face and I curl myself and hug my knees closer to me trying not to let out a sob or any sound.

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Its been two weeks I've been staying here and mum did woke up few days back but she's weak. Dad let me stay here and take online classes. Ryder, Carter and the others try to called me and leave me messages but I didn't even bother replying any of them.

My phone buzzed signalling I got a new message. I look at it and see Ryder texting me, 'Why didn't you answer my calls or reply to my messages? Did I do something wrong? Are you mad at me for kissing you or something? I miss you ad. Pls call me. -R'

I sigh and keep my phone back in my pocket and look at mum. She take hold of my hand, "I want to go home Adriana." she told me. I shook my head, "You need to stay here and get treats."

She smile gently at me, "You and I both know I won't make it honey."

I shook my head again, tears are threatening to spill but I forced them not to. "You'll be okay. You'll be fine and will be back home soon enough." I whisper weakly.

"Honey, I don't want to spend my last few days in the hospital."

I broke down and hug her, "You can't leave us mum. You promise me you'll be there for me anytime I need you." I croaked.

"And I will. I'll always be in yours and Ana's heart. I promise you that." she said as she stroking my hair. I pull away from her, my eyes turn cold, "Don't make promises you can't keep mother." I replied before storming out of the room.

What I didn't know is I did get mum discharged much to Ariana's dismay. We're settling mum down on her bed with Diana in the kitchen cooking some soup for Mum. Before we walk out mum called us. We turn and stare at her, She gesture us to sit down on the bed and so we did with mum in between us.