Fix my broken heart

Chapter 18

The hours seem to slow down and the more people giving me and Ariana a pity and apologise for our lost, I might just lose it. Its getting pretty annoying. Almost everyone, more of mum's siblings is up giving some speech about mum when they're younger and growing up. When Its finally my turn, I kind of freak out a little.

I look at mum casket and to Ariana and everyone in the room. "Mum is just not my mother." I started. "She's also act in the role of being my father, She's the most beautiful woman and down to earth. I wouldn't trade her for anything in the world. But she's also my bestfriend." I said, my voice is slightly crack but I muster up and not to cry. "She tolerate my attitude, she understand why I turn into all the rebel and she never once stop loving me. Every time I got in trouble, she won't make me sit down and listen to her lecture. All she does is that she hope I'll change and leave me alone to think of what I do wrong. She guide me to the light when my world turn to darkness. She told me that when life doesn't seem nice to you at the moment, it means God planning something beautiful in the future." I could feel my tears forming in my eyes at the memory but I blink them away. "She's a good parent. But she's not my mother. She's my Angel." I said. "My guardian angel." I whisper before leaning down and kiss her forehead. I wipe the tear that's escape my eyes and walk down to let Ariana do her speech too.

When we all got back home at mum's house, I went straight to my room and lock it. I don't need someone to barge in and see me crying.

A knock on my door startle me. I wipe the tears away roughly. "Adriana, open the door sweetie." Diana said warmly. I just stay quiet not even bothering to open the door. "Honey, we'll be leaving tomorrow to Seattle. Ariana staying with us. Please pack your stuff." she told me and I heard the footsteps walking away.

The sound of my phone blasting woke me up from my sleep. I only get like an hour of sleep. Sighing, I got up and went to my bathroom. I brushed my teeth and wash my hair before going in the shower to wash my hair and body.

After all the shower, I changed into my floral top with knit cardigan and denim shorts. I brush my hair and leave it as it is and didn't bother to blow dry it. I put on my sandals and walk out the door.

"Morning Adri." Hunter chirp cheerfully.

I nod my head and grab a glass of water. "Adriana, You need to eat something." Diana sweet voice said. I look at her and smile, "I just need a smoke." I told her and with that I walk out to the backyard and have my smoke.

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"Eat something ad." dad said softly. Its dinner time and I can't even find my appetite to eat. And food is my best friend. "Adriana not into food? Wow that's a first." Jack try to joked as he nudge my arm.

I sigh and got up from my sit and leave the dining room. I walk up the stairs, down the hallway and to my room. I change into my pj's and got in my bed.

My phone is buzzing for the whole day, I know it's either Chris or the gang. Ryder and I just not in the talking terms since he sent me a message saying, 'Now I know I don't mean anything to you. Have a great life Adri. -R'

Well what you expect I'm calling you and say. 'Hey my mother died. And I'm in depression. No big deal' ya like that would happen.

A knock on the door make me sigh in frustration. "Sweetie, may I come in?" Diana asked.

"You're already in my room Diana."

"Hun, is not healthy being like this. Talk to us." She said.

"There's nothing to talk about." I replied emotionless.

She sigh, "There's a friend I know who own a company and work as the psychiatrist. I made an appointment for you with her. Its tomorrow after school Please go okay?" she pleaded.

"I'm not sick."

She put her hand over mine, "No you're not. You just need help. See her and talk to her okay?" her voice and eyes filled with worried and concern that I just couldn't say no. So I just nod my head and turn My body away from her. She sigh and got up. Before she leave though she said a quiet goodnight and close the door behind her.

The next morning well is the same thing. I look myself over at the mirror and noticing the dark circle under my eyes. I sigh and got in these shower and wash my body. I don't really need to wash my hair since I already wash it yesterday.

I changed into my t-shirt and overall. I brushed my hair and apply some concealer under my eyes. I put on my white converse, I grab my backpack and walk out the door.

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School is well school. Chris and the others try to talk to me but I hardly acknowledge them. Ariana has enrolled in the same school as I am since she already moving in with me.

My depression is killing me so I called for the only one person I know. Angelo. See, I know him cause he's the friend's of drug lord. So I easily get access to the drugs and the gang. That's how I can easily quit the gang but not before promising that when they need help, I'll help.

"Yo Adri. How can I help you?" Angelo asked through the phone.

I look around the table and see none of them paying attention to me. "I need those things." I stated.

"Sure. Meet me at the club where you work at tonight. See ya baby." he said. I know he's smirking with the tone of his.

See when I had depression, I'm not those typical girls who will cut. I would just get drugs or vodka. I would get myself drunk and high so I could forget the things around me. That's how Angelo first met me. He saw me drinking at the bar with lot of glasses and he console me. He's the only one who really know what's going on in my fucked up head.

The bell rang signalling the end of the school I lazily walk out the classroom and the corridor. "Hey wanna hang out with us?" Carter ask.

I shook my head, "I'll pass. I've got appointment and places to be."

And with that I got on my bike and drive to the direction of the company where Diana told me. I don't want to be there but hey since Diana ask me nicely, I'm gonna give it a shot.

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Its a depressing chapter for Adriana, I know. Apparently, I don't know why I decide to make it depressed anyway. so I got nothing.

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