Letters to Chan ° Stray Kids

84: Skit

what now, chan?

how have you been?

what?

kamusta ka doon, sydney?

fine?

ano nga ba tong tanong ko? syd

go straight to the freaking point chan

i'm sorry

....

i'm sorry for hurting. i'm sorry for not acknowledging your feelings. i'm so sorry for everything. can you let me expla-

for what? para saan pa ba lahat ng sasabihin mo chan? tapos na tayo diba? tinapos mo tayo! ano pang kasinungalingan ang sasabihin mo?

did you even know every little thing na nangyare sydney? have you ever give me the chance to explain it to you? diba hindi?

because i was hurt! you hurt me chan!

i did not meant to!

well fuck you! fuck you for saying that you did not meant it! fuck you for letting me go! fuck you because it still fucking hurts! fuck you because whatever i do, i still love you! no matter how much i want to forget you when i was away, i can't! because i still freaking love you! and it still breaks me chan. it still breaks me to see you like this. ano bang ginawa ko sayo? ha?! ano?!

syd..

gustong gusto kobg magalit sayo ngayon! gustong gusto kitang patayin! gustong gusto kita sampalin! pero di ko magawa! kanina pa akong nagpipigil magalit pero hindi ko kaya!

syd stop

bitawan mo ako!

no, i wont! stop, please!

tama na!

mahal pa rin kita! i am still here because of you! so, stop! hayaan mo akong magpaliwanag!

then tell me!

i was suffering from from a heart disease and i'm fighting for my life! i never told you anything about this because i was scared! i was scared of what's going to happen! ayoko pang mamatay! that's the very reason why i never courted you kahit alam kong mutual yung feelings natin noon! i know i'll die soon! so why waste time to fall in love? gusto lang naman din ako ng tao dahil lang sa mukha ko! dahil lang kilala ako! so why even exist? they don't even know how i feel! but you were different from all of them! you saw me. when i red those letters, you gave me the will to live! you cared about how i feel! that's when i want to thank woojin for sneaking in your house and got that box for me! pero dahil nga bwisit si wendy, she did everything just to break us apart. hanggang sa dumating yung araw na hindi ko na kinakaya! she told me she will help me but in one condition. i should cut you off of my life or else, she will definitely do things i never thought she would do to you. i got so scared syd. kaya pinag isipan ko. hindi ako nagparamdam. but you got the wrong idea. hindi mo ako pinagpaliwanag! you freaked out and left me. hanggang sa hinayaan ko ng gawin ni wendy lahat ng gusto nya. kesa mawala ka sakin, once i got what she offered me, i'll get out of her life. whether it's the easy way or the hard way. but on the wedding day, i escaped at hinabol ka sa airport. but i was too late. i thought i was going to die there. umalis ka na tapos hindi ako nakahinga. i was rushed in the hospital after that. pero yung nagdonate ng puso sakin.. wala na. of course, she's dead tho. kelangan namang patay yung magdonate and it's with consent. but the person who hilled herself just to bring me back to life and to get to you, is gone.

s-sino? I'm.. i'm so sorry. i'm so sorry chan. i was selfish! i did not even ask you about how you feel. i just think about myself. i'm so- i'm sorry.. forgive me

shhh it's all done and over now. you're back and i'm on good condition. let's just settle this okay?

pero..

it's fine. i understand

i'm sorry. di kita hinayaang magsalita. i'm really sorry

i told you, it's fine. now, don't get mad at changbin. he just protected me. tumupad pang sya sa usapan namin. walang nangtraydor sa iyo dito. ako ang may pakana ng lahat. so stop holding grudges against them.

okay, i'm just-

stop, okay? tama na.

but who donated that heart?

your best friend.

who best friend?

it's cindy you grudge holder.

ha? paanong si cindy eh buhay yon. diba yung legal lang na may consent ng organ donation at namatay yung pwedeng guma-

she killed herself for me, syd. so i can live with you.

how can that be? chan! no!

i'm sorry..

cindy.. no..

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