VIXEN

4.

"... I ain't scared of the fall..."

The Weeknd - The Fall [xo.]

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Lorenzo

I felt exposed, ashamed and embarrassed. I wanted to cry, and it was hard keeping me from it. I didn't want her to know the truth, I didn't want her to take pity on me. Tears started to drop, and she wiped them away. "Lorenzo..." She mumbled.

I let it out, I couldn't hold it in. She wrapped her arms around my waist and hugged me. It was an overwhelming feeling, I cried on her shoulder, and she rubbed my back. "Could you please explain?" She said in my ear.

I stopped, and took a deep breath. "I'm depressed, sad, lonely." I muffled on her shoulder. "Why?"

"I don't have anybody. My family put me out because I had also made some wrong decisions. I come from a Christian family, so they didn't approve of me smoking or my tattoos. Earlier when I left work, I tried to go see my family, and they still haven't forgave me. Before I left my mom yelled at me, 'Your a sorry excuse of a man!' and that's what she made me feel like. Before you came over hear earlier, I tried to commit suicide-"

"Is that what all that blood was?" She said pulling away and looking into my eyes. "No, I had cut myself. I had a gun to my chest, and right when I was about to pull the trigger, you knocked on the door."

"I'm glad that I did, because I was going to wait until tomorrow." I slightly smiled, something I haven't done in a long time. "Why do you care so much? We just met."

"I know, but I really like you and I'm a caring person." I felt strange when she said that she liked me, I didn't feel bad, I felt wanted. It was starting to get dark and I have to be up early in the morning. "It's getting late, I think you should go." I said standing up. She looked dissapointed, but got up anyway.

"Yeah, will I see you in the morning?" She asked biting her lip. I stared at her big and plump lips, they looked like mine. "Yeah, I hope so." I said grinning. She started to walk to the door, but I stopped her. "Yeah?"

I hugged her, long and hard. She wrapped her hands around my waist and hugged back just as tight. "Thank you." I said in her ear. "Your welcome." Mumbled into my chest. I had finally let go, and watched her leave, no matter how much I wanted her to stay.

I stood in my bathroom, looking into the mirror staring at my reflection. My lips were turning dark, due to my addiction of weed. I didn't like the way I looked, I felt ugly. I wanted to smash the mirror, I couldn't stand the way that I looked.

I stripped from my clothes, and laid in bed. I couldn't sleep, everytime I closed my eyes, my mind would drift to Lorraine. I wished she was laying her with me, I couldn't help the fact that I loved her, I think. I really don't know.

I heard my phone vibrate. I grabbed it from the nightstand and looked at the screen, seeing that I had a message from Lorraine.

I hope I'm not moving too quick, just thought they should get to know each other better.