RUNAWAY (Completed)

Holding On

I went outside her room. I feel so hopeless knowing that she don't want me there. During her operation. Well, that's her decision. I must respect that.

Naabutan kong tulala ang mga tao sa labas. After they saw me, they immediately asked.

"What happened?"

"Is everything fine?"

"Is she okay?"

"6 months." I replied.

I left them there clueless about what I just said.

Ang bigat sa kalooban. Di ko alam kung saan ako pupunta. Kung saan ako dadalhin ng mga paa ko. I don't know where will I be and what will I do.

Tinangay na nga ni Ara ang puso ko.

I decided to go home. Buti nalang dala ko kotse ko.

I reached our home safely amd I don't know how. Di ko nga naramdaman na nagdrive pala ako.

Dumeretso ako sa kwarto ko. My mom first greeted me. I just took a glance at her and I guess she knows how I feel right now.

Sumalampak ako sa kama at bakla mang pakinggan pero para akong babaeng broken-hearted. Umiiyak ng sobra pa sa sobra.

This pain. But I guess this is not pain at all. This is a test of how strong I'll hold on.

I stared blankly at the ceiling, overthinking.

How does life would be if I would be losing Ara?

I felt a paper inside my pocket of the jeans I am wearing since yesterday.

The LETTER which Ara has written for me.

Ayaw kong basahin kasi alam kong masasaktan lang ako. But no. There's something or someone who's whispering and telling me to read it.

Sh*t! I can't take this anymore. I closed my eyes trying to reminisce some happy thoughts. But I just can't. Lord, I wish this didn't happened. Now, my world is falling into pieces.

I want to sleep right now and knowing tomorrow that this is just a nightmare at all.

I am forcing myself to sleep and luckily, I did it.

Calling....

Paps Jeron

"Hello Paps. Bakit?"  I told him with my shrugged voice. Kagigising ko lang from last night's overthinking session."

"Pare, she's leaving tonight." He said.

"Then?"

"You should be there."

"Why should I?"

"Pare, Gago ka ba? Buhay pa si Ara pero pinapatay mo na! Anong klase ka? Syempre kailangan ka ni Ara mamaya. Pampalakas ng loob niya."

"I insisted that I should go with her to States but she refused. Ano pa kaya na andyan lang sa Pasay? Mas malapit."

"Ibang kaso naman yun paps! Mag-isip ka nga!"

"May training pa tayo mamaya Jeron. Ayaw ni Coach Yeng ng absences."

"Kuya excused ourselves so that we can bid our goodbyes, goodlucks and godblesses to Ara."

"What's the use pare?"

"Mag-isip ka nga Thomas! Sino ba ang humiling kay Ara na kumapit? Diba ikaw? Diba sabi niya ayaw na niya? Gusto na niyang magpahinga. Alam mo kung bakit magpapagamot siya sa America? Kasi hiniling mo Thomas! Hiniling mo. Ganun ka niya kamahal kahit na ayaw na niyang lumaban. Pinilit niyang huwag sumuko kasi andyan ka. At sa simpleng ayaw niya lang magpasama sa America eh hindi mo na siya sisiputin? Nasa Pilipinas palang si Ara, Thomas. Pero parang nilalayo mo na yung loob mo sa kanya."

"Di ako pupunta. Magtratraining ako."

"You idiot. Thomas, what's happening to you? It's just a simple goodbye."

"For you, it's so simple. Not for me. Baka maglupasay lang ako doon sa oras na makitang boarding na ang eroplano nila. Jeron alam mo yung sakit na yun? Di yun mababawi agad. Seeing the one you love walking away from you."

"Thom, she's not walking away. She's coming back. A better Ara. She's doing this for you. Come on Thom."

"6 months would be a long time."

"6 months or you'd be losing her for the rest of our lives."

"Marami ang pwedeng magbago."

"Oo. Pero you'd always be her fiancee. So please come later. She needs some lakas ng loob. I know she'd be waiting."

"I might make a drama scene later so I guess I wouldn't go. Good Morning Jeron! Thanks for the call anyway."

"Come on Thom! Ara needs you. She's fighting for you. For your future."

"Let's just trust with destiny. If it's meant to be, then we really are destined."

"Just go the the airport later. Tell her that you'd be waiting."

"No. I wouldn't come. Just tell her take care for me. Goodbye."

Call Ended...

I Love You Ara. I always will. Seeing you leaving and knowing you'll be away for months, my world is already crashing.