Mullette|| Not Alone (Hamilton Junior High AU)[COMPLETED]

Ch. 20

Laf's POV:

     Me and Herc walk into the very open room with a few chairs and a couple windows letting in sunlight but that was pretty much it.  Me and Herc sit down in two chairs and I let go of his hand.  Dr. Soo sits down in front of us, crosses her legs then takes her clipboard and starts to ask questions "so Laf, why are you here to talk to me today" she asks in a very calm soothing voice.

     I freeze not knowing what to say, and without me really knowing I start to scratch my hand "umm, I... I don't really know" I say not breathing normally.

     She nods her head and writes something down on her clipboard.  She finishes writing something down then looks back up, her eyes travel down to my hand.  I notice and I look down and quickly pull my other hand away and see that my hand was almost starting to bleed.  She looks back up at me, I could tell she was concerned but tried to hide it "Laf, having you been doing this for a while?" she asks.

     I look down at my hand again and see Herc looking at me with almost what looked like fear in his eyes.  I put my hand behind my back knowing he hadn't noticed the scars on my hand before.  I look back up and remembered Dr. Soo had asked me a question "um... I... I" I stumble not able to explain without bursting into tears.

     Herc looks at me sadly then reaches over and gently grabs my hand.  He looks down at it and sees all the scars I had left from over the years "oh my god, Laf" he says with wide eyes "how long... why didn't you tell me?" he says and I could tell he was frustrated but really confused.  Dr. Soo raises her hand to Herc calming him down then looks back at me "Laf, how long has this been going on?" she asks calmly.

     I look down trying to hold back the tears "ever... ever since 6th grade" I say over the tears trying to come out.  Dr. Soo looks at me with sadness in her eyes and I could tell Herc was as upset as I was but I just couldn't look at him.

     Dr. Soo takes a deep breath "have you told anyone about this?" she asks.  I feel a tear run down my face and I lightly shake my head no.  Dr. Soo takes another breath, "Laf, if you ever again feel the need to do this to your self, I need you to call me right away" she says very seriously.  I nod my head still feeling the tears fall down my face as I still look down at my feet.

     After that we went on to a different subject and I calmed down a little bit but the whole time I could still tell Herc was hurt and upset.  I just tried to ignore it for the rest of the session.  When we were done Dr. Soo walked us out and said goodbye then we went out the door and started to walk down the street back to my house.

     Herc lightly takes my hand and I shake a little bit not expecting him to do that "your not upset with me?" I ask him.  

     He shakes his head no "I'm not upset, I was just a little shocked.  Laf you should have told me," he says looking down at me.

     I keep my eyes down "I know, I just didn't because... I just didn't feel it was necessary for me to tell you" I say not really knowing what else to say.

     He takes a deep breath "it's ok, hey when we get to your house maybe we could just hang out, watch a movie or something," he says changing the subject.

     I look up at him and shake my head in agreement "that would be great," I say lightly.

     We get to my house walk in and I see the living room was empty "odd, usually my sister is in here," I say a little confused.  I walk back to her room and see she was in there and my parents were at work.  I go back out to Herc "ok, so I have a suggestion for the movie," I say with a smile.  I walk over to the movie shelf and grab out a movie, I turn around showing the movie "Robin Hood Men in Tights, it is a stupidly funny movie that Mel Brooks made so it's freaking hilarious," I say with a giggle.

     His face lightens up when he sees the movie "I freaking love that movie, it's great," he says with the biggest smile.  I smile at him then I put the movie in and we sit on the couch.

     The part when they sing we're men in tights comes up I start to sing along with them in my deep manly voice "we're men... we're men in tights, we roam around the forest looking for fights" as I sing Herc starts to join in with me in his low voice "we're men... manly men, we're men in tights, yes" we say together and I snap my fingers at "yes."  We finish the song and both laugh at each other.

     We sit there for a moment then the night is young comes on and Herc takes my hands and looks into my eyes and I start to giggle at him knowing what he was doing.  He starts to sing the song in the big dramatic voice like in the movie "the night is young and you're so beautiful" I giggle at him.

     He sings the part when the marry men come in and I see the door open and Alex and John start to sing in the background.  I look around and laugh at them.  They walk in and keep singing the background part as everyone files in one at a time.  He finishes the song then we look at each other joking around, and he says "oh Marian, if only it twer me" and I giggle then say "oh, if it twer it twould be, twerrific," I say in the voice she uses, I look at him trying not to laugh.  Then Angelica walks up to us "no ding ding vithout de vedding vring" she says in the deep accent and we all burst out laughing.