Melody (originally 'A Melody To The Heart')

18

After Oreo died, I made myself busy. The following week, I got my wish to become busier. After school, I went straight to the photo shoot for the new Issue of the Andromeda Magazine. Andromeda isn't just a clothing brand but also a name of a magazine.

Hindi naman ako pwedeng tumanggi dahil, utos ni Mamá 'yon. Buti nga at mabilisan lang ang photo shoot and natapos siya successfully.

However, the thing doesn't end there.

After they released the Issue, here comes the criticisms. I always encounter these people, commenting on every IG post I have and they even go through my DMs. Hindi ko naman sila pinapatulan pero, sumusobra na talaga sila.

It went to the point that I can't sleep and can't focus. 'Yung mga vitamins ko nga ay hindi ko na naiinom dahil puro sleeping pills na ang iniinom ko...and Dean doesn't know that. I even tried to take anti-depressants pero hindi ko na lang tinuloy.

Then, there's Alex who's always worried about me. He even followed me to the library. Aside from my girl friends, palagi niya rin akong tinatanong kung okay lang daw ba ako. I find it sweet of him but, during those days I get easily irritated so palagi ko siyang tinataboy.

I've been ignoring his calls. Not only phone calls from him but also from my friends. I've been distant to anyone from the past few days until Alex decided to visit me.

"Alex, what are you doing here?" Hindi siya nagsabi na pupunta siya sa bahay kaya nagulat na lang ako nang makita ko siya doon.

"I came to visit you. You've been ignoring my calls." He sounded worried. "Chloe, are you okay? You don't look good. You look so pale."

"I'm...I'm okay, Alex. Just go home." I've been skipping my meals at isang beses lang akong kumain buong araw na 'yon kaya medyo nanghihina ako.

"Alam kong hindi ka okay, Chloe! I've been worried about you because you keep ignoring me—"

"I said I'm okay! Umuwi ka na lang, please!" Hindi ko naiwasang masigawan si Alex dahil ayaw niya akong tantanan. I decided to just push him away but I felt dizzy for a moment and I'm glad that Alex was there to catch me.

"Chloe, you okay?"

"I'm...okay." Nagawa ko pang sabihin iyon sa kanya kahit alam ko namang hindi ako okay.

And that's the last thing I rememb because the next thing I know, I woke up at a hospital bed.

Napatingin ako sa kanan ko at nakita ko si Dean na galit na nakatingin sa akin. Pinilit kong makaupo kahit na pakiramdam ko ay nanghihina ako.

"What happened?"

"Ako pa talaga tinanong mo?" Natahimik ako dahil alam ko namang galit siya. Sino ba naman kasing hindi magagalit sa ginawa ko? "Di ba sinabi ko naman sa'yo, kapag hindi ka okay, magsabi ka? Gaano na katagal 'tong torture na ginagawa mo sa sarili mo, ha?!"