What Does It Take To Be a Man
Some years back when I first laid eyes on you
Way back before I ever knew
That you would be so good for me
That love for you would never let me free
Loving you was so crazy and so wild
You made me feel like a well loved child
Who had searched his whole life to find someone
Who thought love was all about having fun
You blew my mind it’s true
With all those things you would do
After all this time I still think of you
Things back then all seemed so brand new
But later if we talked at all we played the game
Of trying to pin the blame
On which one of us let it all go bad
I wish I could just say you were the best I ever had
Once I thought that love would be enough
But things between us got a little rough
And I made my own fair share of mistakes
I had no idea of how much work love takes
I always had thought I would one day have
More than my mom and dad
But now I see them as a pair living life as one
Way after what I had with you was done
I understood that love and told you I wanted you in my life
And that maybe one day I would want you as a wife
But I wanted to play around just a little more
Before I walked inside and locked the door
Don’t tell me I’m selfish I know you wanted to as well
Don’t tell me I put you through hell
I was a stupid kid filled with molten desire
I didn’t want to also be a liar
It wasn’t that you weren’t enough
It was more that I wanted to seem tough
To friends that didn’t stay by my side
Jerks who wanted to take me for a ride
Don’t shed any more tears it’s too late for that
Don’t tell me I treated you like a welcome mat
We could have made it work if we had a plan
But I’m so ashamed right now to be a man
I told you to leave if you really wanted to go
But I still really wanted you to know
That I think we were tied soul to soul
And that apart we would never be whole
And so you left and I was able to have my fun
And I realized too late you were the only one
And more important after all that was done
I heard that you had given birth to my son
A helpless child that looked just like me
How could I ever have let you go free
I’m left with so much regret and pain
I wish I had those chances back again
So now I have sworn a promise to the world
I won’t mess around with even one more girl
Because I know that I did something really bad
And that somewhere there lives a child without a dad
Leif Gregersen
July 1, 2014
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Poems From Inside Me
PoesíaThis is a chapbook of poetry that led me to dedicate myself to writing, whether it be for money or simply to express myself. In this book I talk about family, love, loss and all the illusions that life brings us through.