hamilton fluff (pretty much just jeffmads fluff =3)

(6) Playing Dumb

         Wow, I'm an amaaaaazziiiiiing narrator -_-, I forgot to tell you about  what happened at the park.  I'm just gonna flash back to simplify things, k?  K.

~*flashing back*~

        I show up at the park, only to see Thomas waiting with a cup of coffee.  I take it, fake a smile, and chug it, saying "Why not?"  "because that's not good...?"  "I honestly don't care."  "touche" "so what was the thing...?"  "what..?  I have no idea- Oh, wait yeah I do, but nevermind, it's not important." 'obviously it was though?!'  "Okay...?  Then can we just sit and talk?  I just really need to talk"  "sure thing James"

*a smol time skip in the flashing back*  

         On my way home, I notice something on the side of the coffee, written with a marker.  He wrote it under the band for grip, I only noticed because it stuck out a little.

         umm... I don't know how to say this, so I'm writing it.   You can't stutter or mess up if you write it XD.  Well...... uhhh...... I just wanted to say...... I really like you, James.  Like... a lot.... I'm really sorry if I hurt you... and I get it if you don't feel the same, I get it if you don't trust me anymore, I even get it if you never wanna talk to me again.  Just tell me if you read this, please, I don't have the guts to say any of this, probably not to do anything obvious.  And half of me wants you to know, but the other half of me is begging you never to read this, then at least I could say I tried.  Like I said, it's okay if you don't like me back, I don't expect you to, I just had to try telling you at the very least.  I'm really sorry if it gets awkward between us, I'm really sorry I even feel this way, I'm really sorry I couldn't tell you, and I'm really sorry I'm telling you.

                                                                                                                                                          -Thomas

~*end of flashback*~

         I keep playing dumb, even though it's been about a month, and it's killing me.  I'm drawing right now, chibi versions of me.  'Tomorrow, I have to tell him I know, even if he's mad I didn't tell him, even if I slip up and say I don't feel different around him too.  I don't even know how I feel!!!  I don't know!  I feel good around him, sure, and he's the kind I would like, sure, but I don't know!  It's confusing!  I blush when he fake flirts with me, I like being around him, he IS cute- WAIT WHAT?!?!  I CAn't like him, that's not how... he's.... he's an idiot!  A cute-  OkAy I gEt ThE pOiNt, BrAiN!!!'  I take a deep breath and throw my drawing at the wall.

         "The heck was that?!" I hear Thomas ask from the other room.  "Nothing"  Just thinking about Thomas makes me smile.  'GOD DANG IT I DO LIKE HIM!!!  NO!!! I ... I have to tell him.'  "Hey Thomas?"  "yes James?"  'how do I word this?'  "Well.... c'mere ya idiot."  He comes in through the door.  "Rude, what?  And why are you blushing?"  "Well....."  "yes?"  'I can't do it'  "n-nothing, nevermind"  "tell me... please?"  "... remember the day like a month ago... w-when we went to the park... and you got me a coffee?"  "ummm.... yeah?"  "I..... I saw what y-you wrote on the cup..."  ".......Look I'm really sorry-"  "Shut your face baka."  "What?"  "I told you to shut your face because apparently you can't read emotions very well."  "heh.... okay what?"

         "I... I'm okay with you liking me."  I put my hand over his and look away, blushing.  "Wait what?"  "But there's something I wanna know..."  "sure what?"  "how long have you?"  "a few years..."   "Can we hang out tomorrow?"  "why?"  "It's not like I like you, okay?"  He gets the most confused face, so I hug him.  "ummm.... James... are you saying...?"  "Guess genius."  He goes silent.  "Oh my god you're stupid!  I don't know, ask my brain, I apparently have a thing for tall curly headed idiots!"  I look at him with fake anger, so he smiles and says, "calm down smol."  "I'm. not. that. short!"  "Aww, how are you this cute~?"  "a- wow okay shut up"