jerika : my little brother

chapter 30

Couple days after the movie night  ;

Jakes POV  ; I woke up to hearing knocks on the front door  ,  then when I walked down.  I see Chris and Ruby by the door ,  they looked at me sincerely.  " Jake ,  your mother's outside  " Chris says.  I groan.  Then I walk over to the door.  Once I opened it  ,  she looked horrible.  She looked as if she's been crying for days.  " Can I help you " I say.  " Jake ,  im so so so sorry  ,  I didn't know I was hurting you that much  ,  I took your words and I couldn't stop thinking about you or Jax ,  I know I'm not suppose to be here due to the court thing....  But I just wanted to apologize  ,  I know ,  before you say anything...  I know your not gonna forgive me and I know you don't see my as your mother anymore.  I thought about all the things I have done.  And I admit ,  I am a horrible person.  You don't have to forgive me ,  and you don't need to call or even think of me as your mother.  But in my eyes jake  ,  you are my son.  No matter what you say to hurt me.  Your my son ,  your my blood.  I may have did you wrong many times ,  but I'm human.  A very imperfect human.  But I will try ,  I will try my hardest to make it up for all the things I did  ,  for all the things I missed out with you.  " She says as she cries in between her words.  I may admit my eyes did start to tear to.  She started to turn to walk away ,  but I gently grabbed her wrists ,  and pulled her into a hug.  " I'm sorry ,  mom I really am.  I may not know your reasoning for all that you did  ,  but your still my mom.  Even if u said your weren't you are and always will be.  I do love you ,  I do.  But I just need time  " I say.  I know I went off at her.  But I actually think this time that she means it.  I do love her ,  I mean she's my mom weather I like it or not.  I just need the time.  She hugged me back.  " Jake ,  I am truly sorry ,  for all I have caused ,  I hurt you and I hurt Jax.  I didn't get to spend your teenaged years growing up with you ,  but at least I got all before that  " She says in a joking way.  I slightly laugh and pull away.  " I forgive you ,  but I think I might need a bit more time for you to fully come back into my life ,  if that's okay  " I ask as I wipe my tears away.  " Of course it is jake " She says as she wipes her tears.  I smile as I walk her to the gate and watch her as I leave.  I run back into the house and close the front door then booked it up to mine and Erika's room.  She was awake.  " Hey " I say as I wipe my tears.  She looks at me ,  then immediately grew a concerned face " Baby what's wrong " She asks.  " Uhh ,  my mom just came and Appologized to me ,  and I actually think she means it this time " I say as I take my shirt and wipe away all the left over tears.  " Aww ,  baby " She says as she holds her arms out.  I walk up to her and hug her tight.  " She looked like she's been crying a lot ,  and she wants to come back into my life  " I say.  She rubs my back  " Do you think it's a good idea ?  " She asks.  I stay silent for a moment... 

" Well ,  I actually wanna give her a chance ,  but I'm not letting her take Jax  " I say.  Erika laughs a little at my demandness at the end.  " She can't ,  he's your Permentatly remember " She says.  I slightly laugh.  We both pull away and she pecks my lips.  " Do whatever your heart wants baby ,  just know I'm here for you every step of the way " She says.  I slightly smile and kiss her passionately

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