Erika's pov ; I couldn't take it anymore. Jax was still hugging me , I was crying. I looked at jake , who was also crying. I didn't know what to do. Then I got a call with sunny. " Hello " I say into the phone as I wipe my tears. " No no no , I'm coming. Be there shortly " I tell her , she had asked me if I wasnt coming. I hung up. Then patted jaxs back softly. " I'm sorry , I have to go " I say to jax. He looks up at me. " Please don't leave me forever... I'll miss you so so so much and - " He says. I cut him off. " I'm not leaving you forever Jax. I'll sure I'll see you some other time " I say. " Some other time! Why can't I just come with you " He shouts. " Because you don't live with me , it doesn't work like that " I say as I look over to jake. " Well can I live with you " Jax says. " Jax " Jake Says. Jax doesn't even loop at him. " That's not up to me Jax " I say as I look at him. " Well make it up to you , I just wanna live with someone , who doesn't care about his girlfriend more then me , I wanna stay with you please " He cries. " Jax , I care about you. Way more then Veronica. Way more then anything " Jake says as he walks closer to us. " Mom please " Jax says. " No " Jake says " I'm sorry Jax " I tell him. He cries more.
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Once I finally get to leave. I felt so bad. Jax , he really wanted to come with me , and he said that jake cares about his new girlfriend more then him. I wanna know what Jax means by that. I really wanted to spend more time with Jax. I want kayzley and Jax to get to know eachother. I want the best for both Jax and jake.... But I don't know what the best is.
So here I am , driving to Sunny's house. Crying my guts out as kayzley sleeps in the back seat.
I do want her to get to know her father , but I don't even know the guy , I mean after all its been six years , and people change , I just hope that if he wants to get to know his daughter , and to be in her life , he's still the same loving and caring person I once loved , oh hell , still love.
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After i dropped off kayzley and talked to sunny , I went back to my place . I have a early morning shoot , and here I am. It's 1 in the morning and I'm still crying. Ugh. Why is all I say to myself.
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Not more then 10 mins later I hear a knock on the door . I get up and open it to see jake. I immediately attempt to close it , but he held it open. " What do you want " I say as I wipe my face. " To talk " He says in a sad voice. " Well I don't want to " I say. More tears fell as I see him. He just walks closer to me and engulfs me in a hug. I didn't have the strength the push him away. So I just cried. He closed the door and we just stood there. I don't even know what I was thinking. Standing there , as he hugged me made me realize what a mistake I made. The mistake of leaving the man I loved the most. But it's to late to take it all back , hes moved on.
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I finally got the tears to stop. I moved out of his grip and looked at him.
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Jakes pov ; she stood there. Looking at me. With big red puffy eyes. " I-im sorry " Is all I could get out. " Same " Is all she says. The she just slides down the door. She sits down and puts her head in her knees. I sit down in front of her. " I'm sorry for letting you leave , I still really care about you , a-a-lot actually and I just wanna be in your , yours and our daughters life " I say. She doesn't move , and she doesn't say a thing.
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We sat in silence for a little with her still not moving , or saying a thing... But i could hear her soft sniffles.
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" Please say something , anything " I tell her.
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Erika's pov ; no Erika! No. Is what I'm thinking about right now. A part of me just wants to kiss him and hug him , but the other side of me is telling me no. He's has a girlfriend for 1. He has no more interest in me anymore... Why do I have to be such a bipolar indecisive person for crying out loud. I can never make up my mind when I need to. Why can I hate him so much for a no good reason one minute. Then once I see him , my mind starts to blow up like I'm still in love with him.. But then again. I am still in love with him. I sit my head up and look at him. " Do you really wanna get to know your daughter " I tell him. " Yes more then anything. " He says. " Then you and jax come over tmr around 5-6 ish , if your not busy. Then you can finally meet her " I say. " Goodbye " I tell him as I walk to my room. I didn't even bother to open the front door and make sure he got out. I just wanted my bed and my blankets and my teddy bear.. Speaking of this teddy bear , I don't even know why I still have it. This teddy bear , I got from jake. He gave it to me when he had to leave for a business trip.
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I just plop down on my bed , facing it. I grab the teddy bear and just hold it. I face away from the door , looking out the window. And I just cried. Suddenly I feel a hand on my leg. I look and see jake, with his eyes watery. " You still have it " He says. I nod. We small talk a little but not to much.. We began talking about old memories. We were laughing , but still crying. I really did love that man. I just knew , I couldn't show it. After all I've done
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jerika : my little brother
Fanfictionthis story is about the 21 year old jake Paul taking care of his little brother who's only 3 months that his parents left with him . find out what happened and how Erika came in the picture 😋
