Midnight Thoughts (Poetry)

Grandpa

So I have written this for my grandpa. He passed away 10 years ago due to brain tumor. A letter that I have writren to him will follow.

You were my sun
But one day
You set away
And all there was
Miles and miles of
A moody sky
Full of clouds
And filled with rain.
It's as if it had become
Permanently winter
But I used to love winter
Until it slowly found its way
To make my soul a home.
You left me
And I felt alone
I was mad at you
for leaving me behind
In this fucked up world.
No hand to hold me
In the dark
I was too young
To have to face that.
I needed you.
I need you.
But you didn't deserve
To suffer more as well.
I have always wanted you
To be happy.
So that's how I will remember you
That bright enormous smile
Too big for your face.
Not as the cancer
That stripped you from
Your human dignity
And took away
Your strength
'Cause it never defined you.
It wasn't for you.
Your soul remained the same;
The soul of a captain.
I will never forget you
Nor the memories I have of you.
You will live through me
And the people that cared for you
You will be remembered
And loved.

Thank you for reading this.
It means a lot.

Xoxo
Amalia