Midnight Thoughts (Poetry)

Just As Blue

This is a continuation of "As Broken As I Am" from the boy's point of view. Enjoy.

I felt my heartbeat picking up pace at the sight beside me. There she was. Sitting right next to me, so close that her right leg was barely brushing mine. She was lost deep in her thoughts, trying to voice out the depths of her soul to me. I stared right into those dirty brown eyes of hers as she so passionately tried to spill out the wonder of that astonishingly devious mind of hers. They sparkled so brightly, they put the stars to shame. She is so poetically beautiful and I swear I can never get tired of looking at her.

She smiled at me when she finished off.

"Wow, are you trying to read my mind or something?" She laughed and butterflies started flowing around my stomach.

"Oh really?" She said slyly, raising an eyebrow at me challengely.

"I sink into blue

just like you.

And they think

that darkness only

creeps in black.

They have no fucking clue

that it's part of who I am.

Bonded tightly to it

it's everything I have.

They say there is

still time to change.

Change what?

I don't fucking know

how to be anything else

but what I already am.

Tied up to the same fate

for the rest of my life,

with no escape

nor choice

I have to be

lost between the shadows

and the silence.

Hide my pride

in distressed prose,

hide my words behind inky petals

written from the saddest form

of poetry.

Forgotten and paralysed

I can't be afraid.

Bulletproof skin or not

I need to be brave.

I can't let being forgotten

break me apart.

As long as I am willing

to break down

the sharp edges of a star

into a smile

everything's fine.

There are

a million ways to die

but being blue

shouldn't be one of them."

I hope you enjoyed the boy's version too. I think personally I like the girl's version more. I look forward to reading your feedback. 

Thank you for reading this.

Xoxo
Amalia