Saving You

15//Just Look At Me

Chapter 15

"If you ever ask me how many times you have crossed my mind, I would say once. Because you came and never left."

~Ritu Ghatourey

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1 month later.............
{Rose's P.O.V}
I was getting thinner. My face became more pale than ever. I felt like i was getting weak not only emotionally but also physically. Something is wrong with me and i don't know what it is. Maybe i have a flu or something. Whatever.......I put on some clothes and i went out to have breakfast. I went to my usual café.

"Dr. Rose, I haven't seen you in a long time!"
"I was sick, so i didn't go to work."
"Yeah, It's obvious you are sick."
"I want one espresso please, Ray. I have a headache."
"Sure just 2 mins. Go sit and i will bring it to you."
"Okay." I said and I went to search for a table.

I saw Ian sitting with his friend.
I guess that's Eric. Ian looked so good. He was laughing. He was happy. That's when i realized that he is not sitting at home depressed or crying like me. I finally made the right choice. He looked in my direction. Our eyes met and i felt like i was about to scream or cry. His eyes!! They are not like i thought they were. They weren't sparkling. He was not happy. It broke my heart. He is depressed and he is botteling his feelings. He is pretending to be happy but he is not. He is wearing a mask. I stood in silence just looking at him waiting for him to wave at me or say anything or even approach me but he didn't do that. He just looked back at me with pain in his eyes.

{Ian's P.O.V}
When i saw Rose, I felt something. I felt something i have been trying to forget for 1 month.
Pain.
Just pain.
When i looked into her eyes, i realized how she looked tired. Her face was pale. Her eyes were full of darkness. She became thinner. She looked horrible yet she was the most beautiful woman i laid my eyes on. Something was off about her. I just don't know what it is. I wanted so bad to go approach her or do anything. I wanted to go and pull her into a hug. I wanted to give her one last kiss but i couldn't. If i went to her, she would play with my feelings again. She would get my hopes up. She would make me happy and i don't want that anymore. The happiness i am going to feel with her is just temporary and that hurts even more. Knowing that your happiness is attached to someone who doesn't plan on staying forever. Knowing that this person is just temporary is enough to break my heart.
"Dude what are you staring at?"
"Rose"
"Where is she?"
"There look at your left."
"Oh! She is pretty."
"Shut up Eric......shit she is approaching us."
"Calm down man."
"Hey." She said with a soft voice.
"Hey Rose! I am Eric Ian's best friend. Nice to meet you."
"Nice to meet you too." She said looking in my direction waiting for me to say anything but i didn't. I couldn't say anything. What should i say?! Hey Rose thanks for shattring my heart or go and hug her instead. I just stared at her in silence.
"Let's go Eric." I said while getting up from my chair trying to avoid any eye contact with her. I walked from beside her.

{Rose's P.O.V}
He couldn't even look at me. He didn't say anything. Why did i do that? Why did i approach him? It broke my heart to see him walking from beside me without saying anything without even looking at me. A tear escaped my eyes. I couldn't take it anymore. Eric was shocked. He was still shocked that maybe Ian did not say anything. To be honest it was unpredictable but what did i want him to do? I just thought that at least he will be the one approaching me turns out i am the one who approached him. Maybe because i know that he loves me and that he wouldn't resist to talk to me. I underestimated the pain i caused him. Tears started forming in my eyes.

Eric got up from his chair. He stood infront of me and he patted my shoulder.
"Make sure he is okay...." I said.
"I will....." He said and turned his face to leave but then he stopped and looked at me.
"Don't fight your feelings Rose. It is not a war." He said and left. I quickly ran to the bathroom. I started crying again. When will i stop crying? When will the pain stop? When!!!! I took a tranquilizer pill and i started taking deep breaths then i went out all normal trying to contain myself.

{Ian's P.O.V}
"Dude where were you?"
"What the fuck did you do Ian?"
"What did i do?"
"You broke the girl's heart."
"......."
"You could have at least said Hey or something. You embarrassed her."
"I couldn't Eric. I felt so much pain."
"She really cares about you. You didn't see her face when you just walked from beside her without even making eye contact. She teared up Ian."
"I don't know what is wrong with her!! Seriously!! If she cares about me deeply or loves me. Why doesn't she come and tell me? I am so sick of that.......Let's just go."

Days passed and i was still me. Still trying to act like nothing happened. Trying to act like i didn't get my heart shattred by the girl i am in love with. My life became boring without her. I was all alone again. I couldn't find anyone to talk to or anyone to understand me like she did. I didn't just lose my friend or the girl i love. I also lost my therapist.

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{Rose's P.O.V}
I woke up today filled with energy although i was tired physically. My body was aching and i don't know why. I took a good shower. I put on my work clothes and i put on my smiley face. Finally i am going back to work.

At work.............
"Shall i send you the first patient Dr.?" Cassie said.
"Yeah sure..."

A beautiful brunette girl approached me. She was wearing a black skirt and a blue top. She looked so cute. Her eyes were filled with innocence yet they were also filled with sadness. I don't know why i feel that but she looks familiar. I just can't figure out where i had seen her before. My mind was all over Ian that I couldn't even remember where i had seen her. My thoughts were not in their place.
"Hello!!" She said with a wide smile.
"Hey, Please sit here." I said pointing to the chair infront of my office desk.

"I am Doctor Rose. I am gonna be your friend not just your therapist and i would prefer if you just call me Rose. Feel free to introduce yourself."

"Well Dr. Rose i mean......
....ummmm......Rose. My name is Hayley Marshall and I am 24 years old."

End of Chapter 15
WTF!! Hayley is alive!!!
How do you think Rose will react?
Will she remember her or Not?
How do you think Ian will react when he knows that the love of his life is alive?!!
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