Rose Alfred Smith, a 23 year old girl who has lost everything in her life including her parents and her twin sister to cancer. She decides to run away from London, her hometown after her twin sister's death. She follows her sister's dream of being a...
"Maybe our hearts can only truly break when we give up on the things and the ones we love or when we are forced to."
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1 week later........ {Ian's P.O.V} I couldn't sleep. I can't do anything without thinking about my rose. I didn't even go to work. I just went to bars to drink and forget about everything but that's what i tell myself. The truth is that when i get drunk. I feel more miserable than ever. My life is meaningless without her in it. A whole week passed without meeting her without even texting her. It's so hard without her. I just realized now how much i am attached to her. I got used to talk to her on daily basis. She became a part of my life, a part of my happiness. Now i feel like a part of me is gone. I miss her so much. I miss her smile, her shyness. I miss being the person i was with her but I took a decision today. I am gonna let her go but before doing that i have to confess my feelings. I have to do what i wanted to do on that day. I will confess. I just can't face her while confessing. I don't want to see the pity in her eyes. That's why i am gonna write her a letter. A Goodbye Letter.
{Rose's P.O.V} I miss him. I miss him in ways i can not describe. I miss everything about him. I miss his smile, that devilish smirk, his cuteness. I miss all of him. I just hadn't realized that up till now. I got attached to him maybe more than he was. But i still do not know why i miss him or why i want him that much in my life. Maybe i miss the person i used to be with him or maybe i do not like being alone anymore. One week passed. One week of crying at night. One week of having nightmares. One week of overthinking. One week of guilt and regret. I guess i am going to get used to it. After all this is the life i got used to. I just can not remove him from my mind even if i worked all day. His face does not leave my mind. His smile is haunting me. His touch that sent shivers down my spine. I miss the feeling i felt with him. But i can not be selfish with him. I will not be selfish anymore. He will lead a better life without me. It's for the best.
At Night...... I was feeling lonely and depressed. I feel like i am going to explode. Darkness is surrounding me and i can't take it. My breath is getting heavier and heavier. I go to the bathroom to wash my face but it did not help. I quickly changed my pyjamas. I put on a hoodie and a sports leggings and i storm out of the house. When i went out of the house i found something on my doorstep. I kneeled down to grab it. I found an envelope and a small black box.
A/N: Please listen to this song while reading the letter for a better experience. {Smoke and Mirrors by Demi Lovato.}
I grabbed the envelope and examined to see if there is any address or something. I just found three words that were enough to break my heart " A Goodbye Letter". With tears froming in my eyes. I sat down on the doorstep and i opened the envelope.
"Dear Rosetta, I am sorry for writing this letter but i couldn't help myself anymore. I have to confess to you even if you managed to forget me and that letter is gonna remind you of me. I can't hold it inside me anymore. I am sorry if i am reminding you of me. I just have to let it out. From the moment you entered my life Rosetta and you changed me. You changed my life. You found a way to make me happy. I failed in finding this way but you succeeded. You brought the best out of me. You made me open up to you althought many failed in doing that. You managed to make me feel like my old self. You brought back the person i lost in Hayley's accident. You brought me back to life. I am grateful for what you have done to me Rosetta. I just thought that it would last forever but looks like it won't. I have known you for like 10 months now or something. I didn't count to be honest. I lost the count of days when i was with you. I have to tell you that i need you in my life. Without you Rosetta i am lost. I can't find my way back. Darkness and loneliness are haunting me. I need you but not as my friend. I need more than that from you but seems like you don't need me the same way i need you. I just want to know Why? Why did you give me hope when you weren't planning on staying? Why did you give me wrong signals? Or Was it just illusions i made to myself? I wonder if i ever made you feel anything. I wonder if i ever made you happy. You left me in the middle of the road Rosetta. I opened up to you and you left me. I trusted you but you let me down. For one moment i thought that i made you happy or that you felt something with me. I guess i was wrong. I guess i was wrong to think that i am someone who will be loved. I bet you felt the connection between us. I know you felt it. I just dunno why you deny it. I just lost the only good thing in my life. You did the right decision by freeing yourself from me. I would have destroyed you. But i can't thank you for breaking my heart. No Rosetta you didn't break it. It was already broken you just shattered it into a million pieces. I just wanted to get it out of my chest. I didn't know what i was feeling towards you but when you left that day. I realized that i fell in love with you. I LOVE YOU ROSETTA ALFRED SMITH. I FUCKING LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART. I would die for you. I would sacrifice everything for you. Woah that felt good to get out of my chest. It's hard to say this but Rosetta this is a goodbye. I don't want to see you again or talk to you. You left me no choice Rosetta. It hurts me to give up on you but you didn't give me one reason to stay.I hope you have a better life. I hope you will find someone who will make you feel something i failed in. I will neither forget you nor i will forget the person i was with you. Goodbye Rosie Rose." Note: The small black box beside the envelope is a gift from me. I was going to give it to you if you said yes that day. It is for you Rosetta. If you don't feel anything towards it just throw it. I won't blame you for doing that. After all you didn't love me or feel anything towards me. ~Ian Price
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** I stared at the letter in my hands for a little while and tears just stormed out like a volcano has just erupted. I felt pain. An unbearable pain. It was like my whole world just fell apart. I just lost the only person who cared for me. I am a fool to believe that after what happened 1 week ago he would want to be my friend again or something. I broke his heart. That's the least he could do. I sobbed and i sobbed. My tears were endless. I don't know for how long i have been sitting here on my doorstep staring blankly at the letter while tears escaping my eyes. I reached to the point where i am crying silently. I opened the box just to find a simple ring. It was so nice. I started crying more and more. I broke his heart. No. I just shattred it. I felt my breath get heavier and heavier. I got up and went into the house. I quickly went to the bathroom and i stared at the mirror. My face was all swallon from crying. I just looked at myself. Call me crazy i wanted to see my sister. I wanted to see my face to remember her. To remember the countless number of people i lost. I opened the medicine cabinet and i took a tranquilizer to help me calm down. I sat down on the bathroom floor and i stared blankly at the letter and the ring. I felt guilty. I felt regret. I felt like i was some heartless person. I was so cruel. I am convincing myself that it's for his own health and i am completely ignoring the fact that i was unfair to him. I made a decision for him. I chose for him. I am selfish. My thoughts were confusing me. One minute i say i am selfish the second minute i say i made the right decision.
Hours passed and i was still sitting on the bathroom floor staring blankly. I was emotionless. I reached a point where i felt nothing. I got up from the floor and i opened the medicine cabinet again. I took two sleeping pills this time and i went to bed still in my hands the letter and the box. Still thinking about the letter. His written words are still echoing in my head. He didn't call me Rose or Rosie anymore. No. He just called me by real name. The name i never used. Rosetta. That means that we are starngers now. We are strangers with some memories.
End of Chapter 14 I hope you liked this chapter❤ I really liked writing it💔😭 Please vote and comment❤ Let me know how you feel about this heartbreak💔😭
