𝐒𝐓 & 𝐈𝐓 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒!! (𝘾𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙇𝙀𝙏𝙀𝘿!!)

CHAPTER 86 (f.w)

SAD!
Based off the song SAD! by XXX
Warning: suicide mention and abuse
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who am I, someone that's afraid to let go
I can't recognize myself anymore. I've gotten skinnier, never go out. It's not me and I know it. Mom and Dad are getting worse and I can't stop it. It's because of me, if I wasn't here everything would be fine. But I'm scared.

you decide if you ever gonna let me know
I haven't seen Finn in a while. He has called me days on end everyday. I never pick up, I don't want him to know. I don't want him to worry about me. I've gotten messages from my bullies saying I should just kill my self and the world would be a happy place. If Finn were here he would tell me that I am worth it and they are just jealous. But am I worth it? I should tell him how I'm doing, but km scared he will judge me.

suicide, if you ever trying to let go
I don't deserve to be here, I keep telling myself that everyone would be better off with out me, trying to convince myself that it's okay, to just go. The thing is I want to go. I want to die. I don't want to live in this so called life I'm living. I don't want to be here anymore. This why I have to do this.

I'm sad to know ya
I grabbed the razor from under the sink. I put it up to my throat. It's gonna be quick and easy. Just get it over with. I push it further. Come on just do it.
And I did.

Im sad to know ya.

Finn later discovered that she had killed herself when he got back home from filming. He never knew that she wanted to do this.
She had left a note for him.

Finn. You and everyone was better off with out me. I was a waste of space to the world.
So
I
Left.
I love you so much Finnie. Have the best life.

Love, Y/n/n

He cried every night and never left his room.

'Damn it Y/n!'

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This sucked ass