𝐒𝐓 & 𝐈𝐓 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒!! (𝘾𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙇𝙀𝙏𝙀𝘿!!)

CHAPTER 88 (s.s)

Under The Stars
An/ based off Fault in Our Stars kind of
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Flashback
I giggled as a ran around with my best friend Sadie. We were playing tag and I was winning. She was too slow, I laughed and ran behind a tree.
I tried to stop laughing but I couldn't, the laughing turned into coughing. I looked down to see blood on my hand. I screamed and Sadie came over to me, as she saw the blood her eyes widened.
Sadie- did you cut yourself
Michelle- no, I was coughing and- and then I saw blood.
Sadie- let's go tell your mom!
We ran into the house and told our mom, my mom freaked and took me to the hospital.
End of Flashback

I memorized that day, that was the day I thought that my life was over. The doctors said it was nothing wrong but I thought otherwise ever since. I was about 11, it was the day before my birthday.
As I looked up at the stars on my roof, I smiled. The stars calmed me, they make me happy. I always think that the stars are my ancestors.
It's like they are watching over me and it makes me calm. I smiled and looked over as I heard my window open. Came through was Sadie Sink, my best-friend and secret crush.
Michelle- hey Sadie!
Sadie- hey, what ya doing?
Michelle- looking at the stars, aren't they beautiful?
Sadie- yeah..
We started talking about everything and anything. That's what happens when Sadie is around, we could be apart for so long and then have the longest convo about anything like she has been here the whole time. That's what I love about her. She's outgoing, but cautious.
Sadie- it's getting cold, let's go in.
I nodded and we climbed through my window and started watching movies.

2 weeks later
I got up for school and headed to the bathroom, I didn't feel the greatest today. I looked in the mirror and almost jumped at how crazy I looked.
I was pale and had bags under my eyes. I coughed and sniffled. I coughed again but this time blood splattered on my sink.
I started to panic and frantically started cleaning it up. This can't be happening.
Flashback
I walked into the backyard where my party was being held. I was finally 12! I ran over to my mom and hugged her, as well as thanking her for the party. I joined all my friends in a game of double Dutch.
Tracy- starwberyy shortcake, cherry on top! How many boyfriends do you got!
As Sadie and I jumped, I couldn't help but laugh.
5,6,7
I laughed but my foot got caught in the rope, making me fall to the ground. I laughed and all my friends giggled. I got up, but started coughing again. I coughed and blood cane out my mouth again.
Tracy- omg! Are you okay?!
My eyes went wide and ran to my mom. She looked at me with confusion on her face. What was happening to me?
End of Flashback

I haven't had that problem in years and now I'm guessing it's back. I coughed, but this time almost throwing up. I ran to the toilet and threw up.
I got up and started to feel dizzy making me fall to the ground, last I saw was black.
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BEEP
I open my eyes, coming in contact with a bright light.
BEEP
I opened them fully and saw that I was plugged up to and IV, a nurse talking to my mom.
BEEP
My mom was moving her hands frantically as she talked.
Mom- there was blood and-
She looked over at me and saw I was awake. She hugged me lightly and I looked at her confused.
Michelle- what am I doing here?
Nurse- you passed out, honey. Look we want you to answer some question. Is that okay?
I nod my head and she gave me a soft smile, telling my mom to leave the room.
Nurse- do you remember anything, before passing out?
Michelle- I remember blood was on the sink and I was cleaning it up, but- I had to throw up.. and that's it.
Nurse- you don't remember anything before that?
I shook my head, she nodded and wrote down something on her notepad.
Michelle- what's happening to me?
Nurse- we have to run some test and then we'll see..
I nodded my head and she left out. The door opened again and I saw my twin Marley. She looked at me with sad eyes.
Marley- how are you?
Michelle- I don't feel good at all
I chuckled and she half smiled. She looked sad and I grabbed her hand.
Michelle- everything will be fine. Okay?
Marley- but what if it's not Michelle! What if you die!
My eyes widened.
Michelle- I won't die..
She nodded her head and we started talking about old memories of each other.
Flashback
Mom- say cheese!
Marley- moom we have to go!
Mom- one more picture!
Michelle- mom the final bell rings in 20 minutes!
Mom- I know. My babies are going to middle school!- I
She started crying. I looked at Marley and she rolled her eyes playfully. We both hugged her.
Michelle- we are big girls now
Marley- yeah. big girls who are now almost late for their first day of school!
We chuckled and went out the house.
End of Flashback

Michelle- I remember that day. I was lowkey scared having to go to middle school.
Marley- but you had me.
Michelle- yeah-
I was cut off by another cough. Marley rubbed my hand.
Michelle- I'm- I'm fine

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I woke up in a different room. I looked up to see my mom talking to the doctor. Tears were streaming down her face and the doctor was rubbing her arm.
I sat up and they both looked at me with sad eyes. I furrowed my eyes brows and the doctor came up to me.
Doctor- hi sweetie. I'm Dr. Tatianna
I shook her hand and she gave me a warm smile.
Doctor- so the test results came in.. and-
She looked at my mom and she nodded. I looked at them in confusion.
Michelle- what's going on
Doctor- you have Stage 4 lung cancer..
My eyes widened as tears started welling in my eyes.
Stage 4 lung cancer
cancer
cancer
The words rang in my head and I started crying. The doctor was saying more things but I couldn't hear. I looked around and all I see is blur, I looked at the door to see Sadie standing there with her hand over her mouth. That's the last thing I saw before I blacked out.

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BEEP
I woke up in the same room. I looked around to see there was a oxygen tank by my side.
BEEP
I looked at the couch and saw Sadie and Marley sleeping on the couch. I smiled.
BEEP
I breathed in and out. I then realized I had a mask on.
BEEP
in and out
BEEP
I heard my mom coming over to me and kissed my cheek.
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I walked in my room with my oxygen tank pole by my side. Sadie helped me sit down and I smiled.
Michelle- Sadie. Can I tell you something?
Sadie- yeah sure
Michelle- I've been thinking- well this has been on my mind for a while. I think I'm in love with you
Sadie's eyes went wide and I looked down.
Michelle- I knew this was a bad idea-
Sadie- no no no, I-I love you too!
I lifted my head up and smiled.
Michelle- really?
Sadie- yes for so long..
I smiled and kissed her. She kissed back almost immediately and I felt good. For the first time this whole day I felt good.
We pulled away and both blushed. I looked out my window and smiled.
Michelle- let's go watch the stars!
She chuckled and we made our way to my back yard.
We sat there in silence for 10 minutes until I finally broke it.
Michelle- when I die, make sure to keep looking at the stars
Sadie- why?
Michelle- cause you will see a shining star and that will be me!
Sadie- cocky much?
I coughed and smiled.
Michelle- very.

4 months later..
Michelle died: September 1, 2016
Mom- she left a note for Sadie, Sadie why don't you come up and read it.
Sadie nodded and sniffled.
Dear Sadie, I know this is so sad to be writing my girlfriend a death note, but hey whatever! I will love you forever and always Sadie, no matter what happens to me.
I love you to the moon and back and you know that babygirl. I wish I could be with you forever, but unfortunately I can't. *chuckles* y'know it's funny how happy I am writing a death note right now.
Sadie chuckled and continued reading.
But I want you to remember that keep looking at the stars babygirl. I will be there, shining bright.
Perhaps the stars will be our always. Also I want you to on and live life to the fullest. I love you babygirl! I hope you find someone that makes you happy.
As Sadie saw the tear drop that was dried up on the page, she felt on it and smiled.
jeez I'm crying. Lastly Sadie. God I ducking love you. I love you so fucking much. I'll miss you baby. Bye babygirl!
- Love , Michelle
Sadie finished reading and bust out crying. She sat down in her seat and whispered 'I love you too baby'.

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