𝐒𝐓 & 𝐈𝐓 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒!! (𝘾𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙇𝙀𝙏𝙀𝘿!!)

CHAPTER 55 (r.t)

DIARY ENTRY PT.2
After fighting IT, it was hard to cope and now we are starting school again and now it's going to be even harder. I walked into my first class and sat down next to Bill. I sighed and put my head down. A lot has been going on at my house and plus the whole IT situation. I'm really scared and I don't say this a lot, but I am.
Bill- h-hey Ri-Rich l-look..
I picked my head up and noticed a very cute girl standing in front of the class with a big smile on her face. I smiled, for the first time in forever I smiled a genuine smile. We made eye contact and I smiled.
She made her way over to the empty desk next to mine.
You- hi.
Richie- hi..
After that we bonded. She made me happy and she helped me with everything, but over the months I have developed strong feelings for her and I don't think she feels the same way. She just sees me as a best friend. Today I'm going over her house to watch some movies, we haven't seen eachother since the last day of school and that was 1 month ago.
I knocked on her bedroom door to see her writing in a book. I looked over her shoulder to see what she was writing and I saw: Dear Mike, in her amazing hand writing.. all i could think was who is Mike? She looked up at me and her eyes widened and she quickly went to shut her book.
You- I uh didn't know you were standing there..
Richie- sorry about that uh who is Mike?
You- just uh a uh friend.. from my home town..
She looked nervous about talking about this Mike character. I decided it was best to leave it alone..
Richie- why don't we start watching movies eh?
You- yeah!

It's been a year since Y/n stopped talking to us and I don't understand.. she doesn't go to school anymore and she just stays in her house. I've heard screaming coming from her room and I always just thought it was because she was watching a scary movie, but after a while it didn't sound like she was watching scary movies. Her screaming was a everyday thing and I started getting worried, but every time I try to check up on her. She just says she is fine and closes the door in my face. I miss her so much and I don't know what to do. I miss her smile and her face- just everything about her.

It's been a couple more months and I found out her dad died. She said that she has to go to a adoption center. I see her through my window sometimes sitting at her desk writing away in that journal of hers. I watched her get up from her desk and go to her bathroom. I walked away from my window and sat down on my bed.
Richie- what did I do wrong?

Y/n killed herself and I'm not coping well with that y'know? I loved her so much and I should've been there for her. I stand in front of my mirror of my bathroom looking at myself getting in my head.
She never loved you!
She just saw you as friend
You're useless to this world
Kill your self
Do it
Do it
I cried. I started crying so hard. I grabbed the razor and whispered some last words
Richie- I need you.,
I slit my throat and everything went black...
Do it
Do it
Do it

Richie D.O.B: March 8, 1976 D.O.D: June 9, 1984
Last Words: I need you

Broooo why am I doing this to myself ! But hope you liked and if you want you can read this chapter and then the Mike chapter.. if you want
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