𝐒𝐓 & 𝐈𝐓 𝐈𝐌𝐀𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒!! (𝘾𝙊𝙈𝙋𝙇𝙀𝙏𝙀𝘿!!)

CHAPTER 96 (e.k)

  ANYMORE
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Don't be that way
I watched as Eddie paced around his tidy room, hands in his hair as he thought frantically about what had been said just hours before
Eddie- what if I am a freak?
I got up walking to the fragile boy, I caressed his cheek and he looked down at me.
You- you are no freak babyboy.. you are extraordinary
Fall apart twice a day
He walked up to me as I put the last thing on the shelves of the small convenience store, I turned around to be faced by a crying Eddie. My faces softened at the sight of my boyfriend, tears slowly streaming down his face.
Eddie- it happened again. She said horrible things.. sh-she kicked me out Y/n.
My eyes went wide and I hugged him tightly, scared that if I let go that he would fall apart at the scene.
You- wanna stay at mine?
Eddie- can I? Really?
I chuckled and he smiled.
You- of course baby
I just wish you could feel what you say
He stormed up to me and I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion as to why he was so angry.
Eddie- you thought I wouldn't find out?!
I frowned.
You- what are you talking about baby?
Eddie- don't baby me! You slut! You kissed some random dude! What the hell!
He shoved the picture on his phone right in my face, I looked at it and it was fake.
You- that's not real! I would never do that to you!
He scoffed and I shook my head.
Eddie- you whore! We're over!
After all I had been through with him, after I had held him in the night when his mom would yell at him. The times where I just sat there listening to him go on and on about anything. I watched as he walked away and I broke down.
Show, never tell
I walked the school halls, all alone. Eddie not there to have me in his arms whilst we walked down the hall to my locker. No one to hold me.
I reached my locker and opened it, hoodie on and head down. I grabbed a random book and closed the locker walking away. I watched him talk to his friends, he looked at me and I could have sworn I saw a glimpse of regret or sadness.
I just walked faster.
I reached class and sat down.
Teacher- show and tell everyone! I want you to tell us a tragic story, show emotion! Drama class is all about emotion! First up.. Y/n!
I swallowed hard and I got up from my seat, I faced the class and cleared my throat.
You- emotions. We show them everyday. When we get mad, heartbroken, sad and disgusted-
I looked at Eddie and he looked down.
You- we show emotions as a sign of humanity, as a sign of forgiveness and sorrow.. many more. Emotions can be especially heartbreaking. Show emotion. Don't hide it..
I sat down, tears threatening to pour out of my e/c eyes.
Teacher- beautiful Y/n! Next is..
But I know you too well
I walked up my stairs to my home, I was about to twist the nob when I heard someone yell my name.
I turned around to be faced by Richie Tozier, I smiled and he ran up to me.
Richie- hey babygirl.. why haven't you been hanging with the group?
You- I've uh been busy..
He looked at me, knowing I was lying.
Richie- tell me the truth babe..
You- Eddie and I broke up, well, he broke up with me..
His eyes went wide and I chuckled.
Richie- that means I can have you to myself?
He smirked and I hit his shoulder.
You- no Tozier
Richie- but why?
You- he saw this fake pic of me 'kissing' someone and assumed it was real! It wasn't Rich..
He hugged me and I sniffled. It wasn't
Kind of mood that you wish you could sell
I dragged myself out of bed, feeling worse everyday I wake up. Day after day never shaking this feeling of pain. I wish it could all go away. But it can't..
If teardrops could be bottled, there'd be swimming pools filled by models
They say that models were the worlds saddest people to be alive, well I think I beat them. I haven't left the house in weeks. I keep telling my parents I don't feel well, but that isn't the true definition of how I feel in this moment. Heart ache. Head ache. I feel as though my heart has been physically broken. That my world has been stopped. That I'm not me.
Told that tight dress is what makes you a whore
Greta was throwing her annual birthday bash that happened every year. This time surprisingly I had been invited, I don't know why or how but I had been. I put on the tightest dress I had and put on light make up, curled my hair and put on my high heels. I walked out the house, and to Greta's hoping that it will make me feel the slightest better.
I walked into the living to see people laughing at the screen, I furrowed my eyebrows and walked closer.
Greta- and he broke up with her- oh! There's the main event now, hey Y/n. It's horrible how you and Eddie broke up.. wonder what happened..
You- you did this! You made that fake photo!
Greta- I've done no such thing!
The group of kids laughed and I ran out, tears streaming down my face a mile a minute.
If I love you was a promise
I walked up to my house, seeing a figure sitting on my stairs. I furrowed my eyebrows.
I walked closer to see Eddie.
You- Eddie?
He looked up and I crossed my arms.
Eddie- Y/n.. I'm sorry! I didn't know that it was really fake and-
You- yeah yeah..
His face dropped and I walked past him, he grabbed my arm and turned me around, bumping me into his chest slightly.
Eddie- I'm sorry...
Would you break it, if you're honest
Eddie- I love you..
I looked him in the eyes and smiled.
You- I loved you once too..
I walked away.
Tell the mirror what you know she's heard before
His face dropped, tears brimming at his eyes as he watched her walk away.
I don't wanna be you...
He kicked stuff in his room and cried.
He grabbed a razor and slit one of his wrist slightly, starting the mess all over again.

anymore

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