So It Seemed // Why Don't We ✔

Chapter 6

"Needle and the thread
Gotta get you out of my head
Needle and the thread
Gonna wind up dead"
-Stitches by Shawn Mendes

"A curious mind knows no limits" -Unknown

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⚠MINOR TRIGGER WARNING⚠

It's been a couple weeks, seeing the boys off and on. I've still been getting tweets of doing some sort of duet with this Why Don't We group.

Anyways, I went over that Sunday and instead of swimming we went out to eat, then went to a movie. I didn't want to swim, risking them seeing my cuts. Our family has gone on like it didn't happen, but it stayed at the front of my mind.

It feels like the boys and I have known each other forever.

Corbyn is going to be flying out in the morning to see his girlfriend, Christina. She seems really sweet.

Jack has been working on his vocals, even though he's great. He says he needs to be perfect.

Zach has been his normal self, obsessing over Ariana Grande. He wants to get tickets to see her next time she's in Cali.

Daniel has been working on writing a couple new songs. He's getting there. I'm so proud of him.

Jonah has been communicating with fans and thanking them for all their support. He and I have also been getting closer. I wouldn't say I like him, but close. I only think of these boys as best friends.

Today I'm actually heading over there. Since Corbyn is leaving tomorrow, we decided we'd have one more day. He'd be gone for 3 weeks spending time with her. I was gonna miss my idiot, but they need some time.

I walked to my closet and picked out denim shorts, a black Adidas long sleeve, and black slip on Vans. I got dressed and walked downstairs to my family.

We ate breakfast with small conversations here and there. After, Mom and Dad left for work. Byson and I sat on the couch watching hockey. He always loved it.

"Oh, shoot! Did you see that Mikey?!" Bryson shouted excitedly while hitting me repeatedly on my arm.

I slapped his hand away and chuckled, "Yep. Oh, my Uber is here. See ya, B." I said getting up.

"Wait, where you going?" He turned to me.

"The boys. Bye." I didn't give him a chance to respond before heading out the door.

I arrived about 10 minutes later. I walked up to the door and knocked.

Jonah appeared at the door, "Hey, come on in!"

I followed him inside and sat on the couch with the rest of the boys. They all looked pretty serious. This made me curious.

"What's wrong?" I asked them.

They looked intently at each other. Then Jack spoke, "Milan.." he paused. "We've noticed something different."

Corbyn spoke next, "What's going on with you? You seem to be getting more distant everyday. Please tell us what's going on."

It was then I realized, I made a massive mistake. I shouldn't have came here. I knew something was off when Daniel texted me. This is what they wanted me here for and I couldn't tell them. It would break their hearts.

"Please, Mikey. Let us in." Daniel pleaded. I noticed everyone had tears in their eyes, threatening to fall.

I looked at every one of them, "I can't. I'm sorry." The distant words barely reached them.

"Milan. Whatever it is, you can tell us. We're here for you and we will love you no matter what happens. You're like a sister to each one of us." Zach said, shakily. I could tell he was trying his best not to break down.

"I'm sorry. I can't. If I could, I would." I told them. I looked at Jonah who hasn't said anything since I got here. He was looking at the ground anxiously. "Hey, you guys wanna watch a movie?" I offered nervously.

And that's when Jonah burst.

"That's all we do nowadays. We invite you to swim and you say 'not today'. We invite you to the pier, you say you're 'not feeling like it'. We invite you to go to the theme park, you say 'maybe next time'. Can't you just let us in for once? What happened?" Jonah rushed. I knew my eyes were teary.

I looked at him, then at the rest of the boys who were watching me. "I'm sorry." I mumbled.

I dashed out of the house and started running. I slowed to a walk. I didn't know where my legs were taking me, but it turns out I was headed to the pier.

I walked up the hill and stood at the edge. It was truly beautiful. I thought back to the day my siblings and I were here. A happy day. I looked over the edge to find jagged rocks and water. If I fell, I knew I wouldn't survive. No. I knew I shouldn't. But I wanted to.

I looked out over the edge again, getting ready to jump.

Everything will be alright.

As I'm about to jump, a voice startled me.

"Milan?"