So It Seemed // Why Don't We ✔

Chapter 10

"Baby I don't understand this
Your changing, I can't stand it
My heart can't take this damage"
-Changes by XXXTENTACION

"The truth is rarely pure and never simple." -Oscar Wilde

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3 am. The boys house. Can't sleep. I still can't sleep, just thinking of why Jonah left. Never got to say goodnight. Never got to ask why.

Great. Now I'm thirsty. I got up and walked downstairs in Jonah's leopard onesie. I got a glass and walked to fridge, then got out milk and chocolate syrup. After making my chocolate milk, I walked out back by the pool.

I sipped chocolate milk while watching the night sky. I can see why Corbyn likes it so much. It was beautiful. I never wanted to sleep. It looked like someone badazzled the night.

I heard footsteps behind me but didn't care enough to see who. Then someone spoke. And I instantly knew who.

"Why are you still awake?" Jonah asked standing beside me.

I looked over to him, "I could ask you the same thing." He chuckled. "Couldn't sleep. You?"

"Same. Listen, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have just ran out like that." He apologized.

"It's okay. I forgive you, just don't understand why." I said looking back at the stars.

"I.. I think you know why." He started nervously.

I looked at him puzzled, "Nope, not really. Please, enlighten me."

He laughed, "I couldn't stand seeing you kiss him. I knew it was wrong. He likes you, a lot. And I know you guys are twins but he does. He just doesn't know how to tell you."

"It's alright. I only think of him as another twin though." I told him honestly.

"Also.. ever since that day, I saw you at the airport, I thought you were really pretty. I didn't know you, but I tried so hard to try to find your accounts on everything. Nothing matched. I thought I'd see you in town, nothing came up. Then Daniel invited you over and I thought I was gonna have a heart attack." We laughed at this. "I knew something was up when you wouldn't swim or go anywhere that requires cool clothes. Then when we learned what happened, I felt like my whole world came crashing down. You have no idea how much you mean to me."

"Thank you, Jonah. You have no idea how much you mean to me, too." I laughed.

He looked intently at me, "I like you, Milan. I really do. And I understand if you don't like me the same, but I just had to tell you."

"Jonah... I'm flattered. But I don't like any of you boys like that. Because I know if we start anything, then if it ends, I would lose you all. I can't go through with that." I told him, truthfully.

He nodded, looking at the ground. "I'm glad you told me that. Really, M. I wouldn't want to lose you either."

He gave me a big hug and we sat down. We talked the rest of the night away, until dawn came. The colors worked perfectly together.

I took a couple pictures, as did he. I posted a picture of me and Jonah looking at the sunrise on all platforms. Then captioned it 'Sky's so clear when you're the view🌇' then tagged Jonah.

We sat outside until about 7 am, then headed inside. We watched a couple shows then started making breakfast for the others. As we were making food, I got a text.

Mom💅: Father and I are leaving for work soon. Take an uber home please. Love you!

Me: Love you too!

Once done making breakfast, I ate mine quickly. Jonah put the rest aside for the boys.

"Hey, Jonah. I'm gonna go on a run. Can you get me some clothes that might be close to my size?" I asked.

"Yeah, sure. Would you be closer to Jack or Zach's size?" He asked.

"Umm, probably Zach's."

"Alright, be right back." With that he headed upstairs.

He returned a couple minutes later with black joggers, a black Why Don't We shirt, and black and gold Nikes. He handed the clothes to me and I went and changed. The joggers weren't too big. The shirt was close to my size. The shoes were a little big, but I didn't mind.

"See ya later. Tell the boys good morning for me!" I said walking out.

I didn't listen to music today. Just kind of thought to myself the whole time. I ran a couple miles, then stopped when I saw the group chat blowing up.

Da Homies

Corbean🌠: Milan come back

Dani🍉: It's important Milan.

Jojo☕: like now!!!

Noodles🍝: Please read these!

Zachary🐣: Milan, when you get these, we need you to come back as quick as possible. Hurry

Me: what's going on?

Dani🍉: just hurry M

And so hurry is just what I did. I sprinted back to their house and ran inside. They all stood in the kitchen looking sad. They saw I came in and Jonah straightened up.

"Milan. I'm so sorry." He said quietly.

"What are you talking about?" I questioned after catching my breath.

"Umm... it's just... Milan, it's your parents." Jack said. Zach started crying quietly into his shoulder as Jack hugged him tight.

"What? W-what about them?" I asked. My heart started beating faster in my chest. What I heard next sent my world crashing down.

"They're gone, Milan. A drunk driver hit them head on. They tried saving them, but they were too late. Casey called me to tell you, he said he couldn't bring himself to do it." Corbyn said sadly. All the boys were teary eyed and silently crying, besides for Zach, who was now sobbing against Jack.

"No. This isn't real. Tell me this is just a sick joke." I pleaded, eyes threatening with tears.

They just shook their heads. I broke down crying, falling to the cold floor. Jonah came down by me and hugged me, as did Daniel. Corbyn was helping to try and calm down Zach. I couldn't do this. I have no parents. That's all I could think of.

What's going to happen? Where will I go? All I wanted to do right now is be at home with my siblings, comforting them.