" I'm done!" I screamed as tears had rolled down my face. " All my life I've been good. I've tried way to hard to be perfect. I always worry about everything hoping that one day everything will be fine! But it won't I'm still jacked up. I still can't handle myself. I'm a freshman now and you know how long it's been since I've been happy? It was 5th grande. I can't do this I'm scared. The monster inside of me is killing me. Help! I beg you even though I know you can't do anything." I burst into crying I sent this message to Jc.
Then I listened to my message from Grammy. I instantly broke down. My life sucked! My family all abandoned me except for Grammy who now is dying! Ugg I hated my life. I cried and cried. I needed to be saved but
I was far too late.
I called Jc and we talked for hours and hours. I finally told him
Everything. He learned about my family, my depression, my anxiety, my "demons" ( aka. Me ), and of course the
The suicide I had planed out so long ago. He learned I stayed for him.
-------------------------------- Grammy was dying of lung cancer and Jc was always there to help me. I had almost forgotten he was my boyfriend! I should be happy! But why wasn't I? I had plenty of excuses to be sad but hey life's life. But every time I close my eyes its like I'm
Drowning to much sorrow. Slowly an surely it's going to kill me from the inside. Kind of scary.
If only I could be saved. Sometimes I wander why am I here. And then I remember Jc and Grammy the only two people in the world who are there for me.
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A "fine" life
FanfictionA Jc Caylen fan-fiction! CLEAN! Not completed yet. -------------------------------------- Jc and I had been best friends for a long time. I look back now cherishing those precious moments. I still love him too bad he forgot me. The following chap...
