A "fine" life

Chapter 16

"Grammy's gone?" I questioned completely in shock. If she left why couldn't I have left to? I questioned.

She's not gone for good

" She can't be." I shook my head in disbelief.

She's gone the paramedic replied. I was 17 almost a legal adult. I needed somewhere to go just for the remainder of this year and maybe part of next. I aid no one no close friends no family. I only had Jc.

I called him. "Jc I burst into tears I need you now more than ever!" I cried so loud. " hey I'm kinda busy so make it quick." He said sounding only a little but empathetic. " Grammy she's umm.. " I couldn't get out the words. " what ?" He questioned. " she's dead." I blurted out. He was silent. He then replied. " I'll come when I can where are you?" He asked. Life hospital. ( a/n idk if that's real ) " why are you still there if she's dead?" He asked. " I broke my ankle." I quickly said bye and hung up. I couldn't have dealt with much more after this I was ready to die.

I laid in that hospital hearing the machines buzz. I did nothing said nothing just stared into space. I wasn't at peace. I refused to eat. Refused to sleep just wait. Wait until I died.

Jc finally came he was laughing at his phone when he came in and saw me. His smile vanished. I guess it's hard seeing your ex-bestie suffer. He stood staring and I just stared back. I was done caring I'd given up on life.

He asked me about everything but I could not have answered my voice was gone. Leaving my throat feeling raw. I just wrote I let my words flow out as pencil met paper. Jc read he cried and he spoke. I laughed once I hadn't done that in a while. It was too long ago.

I needed to escape my life but Jc needed me here so I stayed. When my voice was back I talked with Jc like old friends who suddenly re meet. I missed him he missed me. Yet we never talked until I was in a moment of need. He spent the night at the hospital in a different room. All I Thought of was him. And I drifted to sleep.

In the morning when I awoke depression hit me. My world was dark. Thoughts of my death. My life in pain. Reminded me I can't live this way. Thoughts that drove me insane. Jc broke me out of my thoughts with news that was supposed to be filled with joy!

I could leave the hospital !!

But one thing Jc brought to mind. Where would I go that's I question I obviously don't know.