A "fine" life

Chapter 19

It's been hours since I've been on the plane. And I'm pretty sure we're going to land soon. I have absolutely no idea where I am, but I'm excited. I closed my eyes and began to think. My thoughts cut deeper into me. The negativity became stronger. I began to hyperventilate.

Then I heard a crash and saw flames go up around me. I was alive. I was the only one in the plane. I was suffering burning each second it got worse. I felt out of breath but I couldn't cry eventually I lost all feeling I watched the fire grow but I was numb. Suddenly everything went dark.

I woke up sweating. The plane attendant was by my side looking worried. " Are you ok honey ? " She asked me looking so worried. " Yeah I just had a nightmare it all cool though " I replied faking a smile. Se shrugged it off and left my seat. The passenger beside me leaned in said "phsyco 30 min. Till we land turn off the electronics. "

"PHSYCO ? I'm completely normal it was one dream because of my freaking depression and you think I'm a PHSYCO! "

I wanted to scream so bad but I held back. I took on a deep breath. I just thought. The fire going around me, being alone, feeling pain but being emotionless, suffocating slowly, numb. That's how I felt. What could I do about it. I was hoping I wouldn't be alone that for once in my life someone somewhere would love me. And be my best friend never leave me like Jc did never! Yea I miss Jc but I really need to feel loved! Jc he couldn't give me that. I felt like I was too much to handle. Maybe my family would love me after all. Maybe just maybe my cousins will care for me..................

30 mins. Later -----

I got of the plane got my stuff and waited in the main lobby. I didn't know what my family looked like. But I was told they would have a sign or something.

I looked around. When i looked to my left I saw an attractive, average height teen with mop like hair. He was holding a sign that said Angelica Clark. I guess that was me. I walked over too him and he smiled then gave me a brief hug. I looked confused how'd you know it was me? He laughed and told me about how he'd done some research to find out who I am. " So you know me but I don't know where in the world I am or who you are other than your my housing so start talking " I sasses at him. " Your in Minnesota silly! And I'm Connor Franta I'm the same age as you and my parents asked me to get you. So here I am "

" Ohhhhh ok den can we go to your house I'm tired " I sighed. " It's yours too! " He replied and with that we left. On the car ride home we talked a lot. About different things. Connor seemed pretty nice and he was hilarious. He obsessed with cats and coffee. Kind of weird if you ask me. I liked him though he seemed like a good brother.

We pulled up to a house e told me go a head and he'd be a sec. I got out went the door knocked and an African American lady answered. She angrily chewed me out for " being a druggie prankster & punk " one I'm not on drugs and Connors the prankster punk. When I turned around to get in the car he was gone. I sat down on the curb and cried. Then I feel someone pick me up and all of the sudden I'm in the car. "C...CO...CONNOR! I screamed and cried more I thought your whee abandoning me" his smirk was gone. " Never I was just joking I've got some makeup in the back a friend left touch up and we'll go home." He replied. I touched up make up. And felt the need to binge.

" I'm famished can we eat? I" I asked " at home " he replied. So I'll just be irritable till I eat. When We got to the house it seemed like no one was home. Connor unlocked the door. I took a step inside the large dark house. Then all of the sudden the house gets brighter " SURPRISE!"

The rest of the Franta family says there hellos and I talk with them briefly. " Nicola show Angelica her room " Momma Franta said ( that's my nickname for her )

Nicola showed me my room and then left to let me settle in. The room was perfect. It had light aqua walls. A loft bed with gray and aqua bed set. A tv a mini fridge a couch and I had my own bathroom! This is a bulimic's dream room!

After I settled in to my perfect room I went to the kitchen. We were going to eat dinner as a FAMILY I've never done that. We sat down and I began to eat I was the only one. I realized they where praying over the meal. I'm unreligious so this was new to me. After they prayed I ate and ate and ate. " You sure eat a lot for a bone skinny girl " Brandon said. I looked down at my plate. Momma Franta pulled Brandon aside to talk about what he said. We finished dinner in peace.

After dinner I was approached by Nicola. She was asking me for my secrets on being so thin. I lied and said genetics. After that I ran to the bathroom and purged up everything. It was awful but I can't help it. After I was done purging I washed up, weighed, stretched, and went to bed. Man what a day.