A "fine" life

Chapter 17

A/N I'm going to write it like It's happening but try to think in the past like reliving a memory~

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I don't know where to go. Jc came and visited me but we aren't close friends anymore. I feel like I barely know him. We talked a lot in the hospital. He seems a lot more shy. He often looks down and I can see his misty eyes I'm worried about him.

At school he's been getting bullied quite a bit. He just uploaded a video on YouTube and I guess it wasn't too popular. Teachers and kids talk about all day. The video is played thousands of times a day. I really felt bad for him.

I think he's going to continue with YouTube but I'm not for sure. He doesn't open up to me like he used to. He's all alone.

I wanted to live with him he's like family too

Me. We just haven't talked lately. While he was with me I felt the need to binge but how do you binge on hospital food. I told Jc to go get me a chicken salad from the nearest fast food restaurant. I knew that wasn't enough so after he left I texted to pick me up a bunch of other foods and I have him the list. Then I told him to get me the 4 of the biggest cups of water they had.

He was crying as he handed me my food and water. Said it was " allergies " but I new he had none. I continued on. I downed one of the waters and then ate my food downing 2 of them as I ate. When I was done I downed the last water. I was able to go to the bathroom whenever so I went in and stuck two fingers down my thought. I was bulimic. And after binging I was purging.

I went back to the room and Jc was being quite. I began to talk to him he just looked at me. He was disappointed and I knew he knew. " Jc it's ok to feel weirded out or not know what to say honestly I'm fine I'm finally getting skinnier " I lifted up my shirt to show him my rib cage. The only thing I eat that I don't puke up is the occasional cup of fruit that I have once every week. I don't eat anything else unless I'm binging. Jc was shocked I pulled down my shirt and just smiled. He hugged me not to tight though i think he was afraid he'd brake me! He won't. I smiled and said I'm fine. He looked at me with concern in his eyes. " you need help angle serious help...your brain is messed up right now your fragile I know that but still you need help. " he said I knew I was messed up I just accepted that. " can you help me ?" I said tears in my eyes " "I don't know how " he said. " like this " I then leaned in to kiss him and he kissed back sparks flew and I began to grab his hair. Ha ha ha ha. No what really happened I kissed he pulled back. " angle I love you but I can't do this " he said and walked out of the room. I stared and then shouted " if you love me show me " and screamed into my pillow.

With Jc crossed out as an option to live with who was left. As I thought this the banker in charge of my grandmas will arrived in the room." Guess What?" He said sounding sarcastically enthusiastic. " you have cousins " cousins? How? "What do they have to do with me?" I asked.

" your moving in with them. " he said blankly.

Great more family to mistreat me.