Hidden Inside (A Poem Book) (On Hold)

Guilt

Oh the guilt that fills me
That takes my heart and crushes it
It makes me want to leave
Leave this cruel world
Where everyone is cruel
Where no one respects
The guilt in me
Makes me want to go
Go far far away
From my past
And start over
Leaving the guilt behind
But I know it will always follow me
Telling me of what I've done
Even if it didn't mean anything
It will put a stone inside of me
A weight I will always carry
It's guilt
And I hate it
I want to take it out
Crush it with my hands
Let it loose
But it's inside of me
Invading my space
And saddening me
Taking a rock
And breaking my bones
Leaving an empty space behind
And swallowing me whole
Like a piece of food
That was just nothing really
But was it actually something?
Is this why this pain struck me?
I don't know where the pain is
But I know it comes from guilt
And I want this pain to go away
I want to get rid of it
Give the guilt more pain
Make it bleed
And slowly become empty
But I know I shall bear it
I will bear the guilt
Even if it hurts
Because I know I want to stay alive
And not make people feel guilt
For my death
So the guilt will always be there
A stone inside of me
That cannot be cut out
That cannot be tasered away
And I will let it stay
For the guilt is mine
And not anyone else's