Affection | N.H

Chapter 14

("Do not pray for an easy life, pray for strength to endure a difficult one." -Bruce Lee)

After my tiring day at work the next day, Niall takes me to the park for a small picnic. He ate a sandwich and can of coke. He had some to offer me too but I denied it, knowing what food does to me.

After that, Niall walks to the car. "Where are we going now?" I groan.

"To have sex I guess?" Niall James Horan answers.

I back away slowly from the car in horror. What is he talking about?

He bursts out laughing and fists the roof of the car. "Look at your face!" He laughs harder.

"Wh-What?" I ask, confused.

"I was kidding man! You fucking took me seriously!" He slides down the car's door and continues laughing.

I walk around the car to stand above him. "That wasn't funny."

"Wasn't funny? I should've taken a picture of your face!" As much as I love the noise of his laugh, right now, it's annoying me.

"Please get off the road and take me home. I mean to the dorms. Please." I say patiently waiting for him to stand up.

Still recovering from his laugh, he stands on his feet and puts both of his hands on my shoulders. His eyes meet mine and soon, I don't want to take my sight off his face. "Tarisha.." He says softly, our faces inches apart.

He glances at my lips before looking up in my eyes. "Y-Yes?" I respond quietly, thinking of a way to get rid of his touch.

"Please tell me.." He begins and brings our faces even closer. I disconnect our eyes and his voice continues speaking. "Let's.."

"Niall, finish the sentence please." I say, gently pushing him away.

"I wanted to say let's get you home. What are you on about?" He bites the inside of his cheek and finally, bursts into laughter again. Confused, I stand there frozen as I watch him laugh very hard. His hands fall from my shoulders and is placed on his sides.

"You're annoying." he rolls his eyes. Yeah I know I am annoying. You've said that to me at least a hundred times since we met.

He was making fun of me all this time? Who was I kidding? I knew he would never feel anything for me and god! Neither do I.

Right?

My blood boils underneath my skin as I watch him still laughing his head off. Tears prick at my eyes and the next thing I know is I am walking away from him. I don't know where I am going and neither do I know where I will end up as a result. But the only thing I want right now is to walk away from the person who has been crushing my soul under his foot a countless time since the past week.

"Tarisha wait!" Niall's accent calls. I fasten my pace and eventually, I take off my sandlas and start running away. The tears escape my eyes and don't show any sign to stop anytime soon. I whimper in pain and grief as I follow wherever my legs are carrying me. Niall's voice eventually fades and finally, I colapse on the rough ground.

It was something inside me that woke up and boosted me. Now, that spirit is gone and I am back being the weak wreck I am. I stay there, in the middle of the empty street with absolutely silence and darkness around me. I burry my head in my arms and cry, cry a lot. Why did he do this to me? Why did he take advantage of my feelings? My trust? I started trusting him even after all those things he did to me in the past week. I decided to give him one more chance. Why did I ever think he cares? All he cares about is himself.

I cry louder and louder and wait for people in this area to wake up, cuss at me and then sooner or later, kill me. I feel so small, so usless. I know what to do. I know how to take these anger out and feel lighter.