Affection | N.H

Chapter 44

("I used to be self conscious about my height but then I thought fuck it, I am Harry Potter." -Daniel Radcliffe)

~Niall's POV~
I bite on my cheek to stop myself from punching Nellie on the face. "I want to live. I am not like you. I don't waste my god damn life every night by partying, drinking and whatever the fuck you do in bed. Why am I even wasting my time here? You can live your little perfect life. I am not interested in this stupid game. And you know what? I don't care what you say! My body is better than yours, It at least hasn't been played with by a new guy every night!" Tarisha spits and disappears in the crowd. Nellie's mouth falls open and I try to hold back my laughter. I honestly want to pat her on the back for saying those truthful words.

"I am fucking done." I begin to say.

"What do you mean? You are staying and joining us while we bitch about her." Sabrina smirks.

"You guys can do whatever the fuck you want to do." I shoot a glare to Sabrina, Nellie and Soph. They're honestly a bunch of shameless rats. I wish I could shut them up when they were saying all those hurtful words to Tarisha. I stand up and brush the dust off my jeans. "You guys are heartless people." I say before walking away from my group of friends. I hear them whisper about me behind my back but I keep walking away. They were once my group. Once I would spend nights with them. Now I like spending time with Tarisha. But I had to come here. I wish I could tell her everything. I wish I could tell her why I pretend there's nothing between us in front of my friends. I honestly cannot wait for the day when I will be able to yell and scream and tell everyone that she's mine. But for now, I have to find her.

~Tarisha's POV~
The next time I see Niall, I will kick his balls and make him unable to make babies. Who the hell does he think he is? And his friends. I don't have any words for them. Just a bunch of shameless rats. Niall is a liar and his friends are not any better than him.

I walk along the streets and keep my stare on the ground while thoughts after thoughts keep flowing through my mind. I suddenly remember everything I said to Nellie, Sophie and Sabrina. I don't remember the last time I stood up for myself. I don't remember the last time when I got told a lot of crap but didn't cut afterwards. Because after every time someone yells at me, new sins are made on my already damaged arms.

I don't know where I am going. Perhaps I will go where my legs carry me to. This back and forth between Niall and I has been just too much for me to handle. It's not like I didn't have enough problems to deal with. Just when I was getting lost in my thoughts, someone pulls me away from the road and spins me around. A car whooshes past and finally the horns get to my ears. The man in the car yells a few swear words at me while driving past. I turn around to find Niall of course. As soon as I find his grip on me, without staring into his eyes like in the movies, I take my eyes away from him and jerk my hand away from his grip.

Niall pushes his hands in his pockets and waits for me to say something. I have got nothing to say Niall. Looking at me today won't make me talk to you. You have made me speechless today. I thought you would at least stand up for me but of course. I am so glad you can't read my mind.

Impatience makes him talk first. "Let's go home."

I raise my hands in the air in disbelief. "You didn't just ask me to go 'home' with you, did you? I got no home Niall. I got no goddamn home. Thanks to you for that. I was living at the dorms but of course you had to send me to my mother's house. And now I can't even go back to my mother's house because she hates me. And I am not ready to call your house, my home. How can you be a part of my home? You don't even care about me, do you?"

Niall just stares at me without speaking a word. The rage that is normally seen on his face is not there at all. I begin to wonder what he came here for. Does he really want to get into my pants? Is that all he wants? What is even going on in his mind? What is he thinking? "Tarisha, there's a lot of explaining to do."