Affection | N.H

Chapter 27

("I hope you realize that trying to keep your distance from me in no way lessens my affection for you." -Augustus Waters, The Fault in Our Stars)

~Niall's Pov~

I have been awake since she fell asleep on my chest. I want to be the one listening to every beat of her heart. But she always ends up hearing my heartbeats which are dedicated to her. I don't know what has happened to me. I never cared about how someone felt before I met her. She makes me want to be good. Every now and then the realization hits me that I can never date someone again. Then I look into her eyes. Her chocolate coloured eyes make me get lost in her. I don't know what these emotions are called and neither do I want to know. I just know I feel good, I feel alive when I am around her, around Tarisha.

She shifts slightly under my arms as if she heard all my thoughts. I don't want her to know how much weak I am towards her. I am afraid she will take advantage of it and...leave me. I am afraid she will leave me like Nellie did. I never knew what feelings were like. When Nellie came into my life, I started thinking about feelings but before I could start believing in them, Nellie threw me away in the trash. I cannot bring myself together to talk about Nellie. For some reason, it hurts less now, after I met Tarisha. The things she does to me, fuck.

She is annoying as fuck, but then again, I cannot resist her touch, her lips. Her mouth tastes like heaven. She is so pure that it scares me. After she showed me her scars the other night, I felt like telling her how much precious she is but I am not good with words. No matter how hard I try to explain how I feel, I just can't.

But for now, I am at least sure that an angel is sleeping in my arms. With that satisfaction, I close my eyes for the night.

~Tarisha's Pov~

I open my eyes from the noise of Niall's melodic heartbeat. I slowly move to look up at his face. He has a gentle grip around me and his touch is so protective. The way he snores quietly is just..beautiful.

Why can't Niall be pleasant like this all the time?

"She is no one, I just want to sleep with her, that's it."

That's what Niall said to Sophie. He told me earlier he hasn't slept with Sophie since last month. How do I believe him when every girl at college thinks Niall is the sex symbol? I never talked about my jelousy to Niall because I am afraid he will take advantage of it and..leave me.

You know what, I will shut up now with the assurance that Niall, the boy who took over my life, my heart, is asleep under my arms.

..

"Where are you going?" Niall pulls me back on the bed as I attempted to stand up. "I thought you were sleeping." I chuckle. "Not when my comfort tries to sneak out." He frowns with his eyes closed.

"Which reminds me, did you resign at KFC?" Niall slowly sits up. "A long time ago." I say standing up from the bed.

"Why so?" He adorably rubs his eyes. "Because I was pissed at you." I state truthfully.

"Do I make you pissed all the time?" he laughs and stretches his arms out. I nod and pull my hair up in a loose bun.

"Jesus your phone has been going off since last night." Niall groans. Of course it has. "Oh." I say simply.

Niall grabs my small phone from the bedside table and stares at the screen for a couple of seconds before looking up at me. "Fuck."

"What?" I ask.

Without saying a further word, Niall gets to his feet and slides his arms around my waist. He pulls me in and places his lips on mine. He slides his tongue across my mouth and kisses me passionately. Niall's teeth grazes over my lip making me moan his name. After a while, he lowers himself to kiss my neck. He sucks on my sweet spot and digs his teeth in my skin giving me a red mark I am sure. I close my eyes shut in pleasure as Niall kisses me on my lips one last time before pulling back. "Happy Birthday." he smiles. "That was a small present. I will have more coming up throughout the day." Niall winks.