She Will be Loved (Completed)

Chapter 10

YOSEF

I was stunned after she released her anger towards me. I felt that my face became swollen. Well I deserved it. I took advantage of her and that's a plain bullshit!

Damn self! Why did you even do that to her? Why are you always tempted whenever you're near her?

Alam kong mali pero hindi ito ang unang beses na ginusto ko siyang halikan. Even during our first encounter I already had the urge to kiss her and touch her skin. I'm craving for her to be in my arms.

I don't know why but she feels like home to me.

She's the kind of stranger who can complete the missing puzzle pieces of my life. It's odd because I only know her by name.

I bitterly laugh at myself.

I don't even know my own life before I had an amnesia. My life is odd as fvck. So paano ko masasabi ngayon sa sarili ko na parang kilala ko siya? Ni ang sarili ko ngang alaala ay hindi pa rin bumabalik.

Its been 7 years mula ng ma-involve daw ako sa isang car accident at hanggang ngayon ay di ko pa rin maalala ang lahat.

This kind of amnesia that I have has only a 5% chance of recovery. It means limang porsyento na lang ang pag-asa na bumalik ang lahat ng memories ko.

Nakakalungkot lang dahil kahit pati pagkamatay ng mga magulang ko ay di ko maalala. Im a mess. My life is a mess because of this fvcking amnesia.

Iniisip ko kung ano ba ang naging kasalanan ko noon para parusahan ako ng ganito? Am I a bad person way back then? May pinatay ba ako? Sinaktan? I'm so frustrated right now.

Kung isa lang akong bomba ay matagal na siguro akong sumabog dahil sa sobrang frustration.

Who would want to wake up one day na walang maalala kahit isa? Idagdag pa ang mga fractures na tinamo ng katawan ko mula sa aksidente. I had to undergo a physical therapy para makalakad muli dahil sobrang naapektohan ang lower part ng aking katawan dahilan upang malumpo ako.

I even had seizures for almost a year at hindi ko alam kung paano at saan ko nakuha 'yon. The doctors told me that it was just the complication of the damage that I got from that near death accident. I also need to take medicines na hanggang ngayon ay iniinom ko pa rin ang ilan. Clara told me that I need to take those pills upang mapabilis ang pagbalik ng alaala ko but it was all useless.

Sa loob ng pitong taon ay wala pa rin akong maalala ni isa. And it started to bother me. There are times that I tried to skip taking those pills but I had an immediate side effect. My head started to hurt like hell whenever I skip that pill. So I don't have a choice but to take those even if I don't want to.

Matapos kong makatikim ng isang malutong na sampal mula sa kaniya ay agad na rin akong umalis. I don't want to make a scene dahil ako naman ang may kasalanan kung bakit siya nagalit.

I drove back to my condo at doon ay naabutan ko si Clara na nakaupo sa couch. She immediately get up and kissed my lips.

"You're not answering your phone Hon. Saan ka ba galing? I've been calling you kanina pa." she sounded worried. I felt guilty for what I did earlier. Its like I'm cheating on her.

"I'm sorry Hon. Hindi ko napansin. Busy lang sa work." pagdadahilan ko.

"Puro ka na lang trabaho. Paano naman ako? I think you also need to work for me Hon?" she sexily said.

I know what she's thinking right now at hindi nga ako nagkamali. Wala pang ilang segundo ay itinulak na niya ako sa couch kung saan siya nakaupo kanina at kinubabawan ako.