His darks

Flashback 12

It was 9:30 pm. I was ready for the party. I was dressed up as plainly as I could. I wore animal print sleeveless top and red pants, with minimal accessories. I had let my curls down. A little amount of mascara and slight blusher on my cheeks. I still had no idea why was I even going to this party staring my reflection. Somewhere at the back of my mind I had a feeling that I should  rather stay at home.

Brushing my hair, as I gazed at my reflection in the mirror, I realized that the person looking back at me was a completely different one. I was never so plane, never so simple and never so broken. What had happened to me, I was a completely different person. Never had I felt so miserable in all these years. Suddenly everything around me had stopped making sense. I was accompanied by a strange silence, at times I enjoyed being in such stillness. While the other times I was trying to run away from it. How can a single incidence change me so drastically?  And more importantly how could a single person cause an avalanche of such unexpected feelings. These feelings seem so different, I knew this was all  wrong but I wanted to be wrong for some strange reasons, unknown to me. Why I was in such a dilemma. I knew what was correct, still I was highly attracted to that unknown danger which was ready to swallow me up.

I decided to leave the house at 10 and be back as soon as possible. I had to drive alone. Because all my friends had their companions I was all alone. At 10 I left my house, it was a 20 minutes drive from my place to Aaron’s.

 I reached in front of his house, there were people all over his garden and parking lot. Music was a way too loud and very unpleasant for me. I had a feeling ‘ok this is not going to turn out something very good’.  Unwillingly I went inside; I was surrounded by drunken teenagers. Everyone was holding a red plastic glass, and they were all completely wasted. As soon as I was inside the house I tried to find any similar faces, but there were none. Not a single group member was to be seen. There were school people and many unknown faces too. I went further inside the house, checked the rooms and kitchen where the hell are they?

I went to the backyard from the back door of the kitchen. It was a huge backyard with a lovely swimming pool. There were people all over the backyard and some were in the swimming pool. I spotted my friends sitting around a table in a circle. All were really enjoying with their partner by their sides. Dale was murmuring something in Tess’s ear, and she was giggling. Sammy seemed too busy with Elizabeth to notice any one else around.  And the love buds Jace and Scott were enjoying their drinks together. How could I miss the only person who had made my life a complete hell. ‘Jaden’ he was sitting there with his red plastic glass and that slut Molly was sitting on his lap. Aaron came to me as soon as he saw me. I hugged him wishing him happy birthday and handed him his gift. He took me by hand guiding me towards the table where everyone was sitting.

Someone handed me a red glass, I looked at its contents making a face. I really hated hard drinks.  I settled down putting my glass on the table.

 I looked towards Jaden, his one hand was around Molly’s waist and the other one was roaming on the exposed parts of her body. I looked away, I was so upset. I  couldn’t beare the sight of him being so close to some one else. It felt as if they were in the middle of a make out session. I felt really sick and disgusted. I wanted to run away from this place as soon as I could.

I was sitting across him, whole time his piercing gaze was fixed on me. He was literally scanning me, just like the other night. He had his glass but was not drinking. He kept his gaze fixed on me as he continued to kiss her. His gaze were so intense, I wanted to hide myself from him. He was making me really uncomfortable.  I knew by agreeing to come to this party was a bad idea. I should not have come here right at the very first place.

All of a sudden I don’t know what got inside me, was it the loud music or my jealousy or this whole situation. I took the glass kept in front of me and gulped down its contents as quickly as I could. The cold bitter liquid burned my throat as it continued to slide down.  It was one of the worst things I had ever tasted. I gagged out some of the liquid.