His darks

Flashback 16

As Jaden left my house, I felt so miserable. Just few moments back we were engrossed in each other so much. Now everything was just shattered I didn’t know from where to start collecting my broken pieces. It was all so quiet now, his taste his aroma, was still so alive in me. When he left he took away all these sources of pleasure with himself.  I could still feel the sensation of his lips on mine. How perfectly he moulded his lips on mine, how he held me, and how he made me feel. It was all so beautiful. When I was in his arms, the world around me stopped right at that moment.  When he left I realised I was so incomplete without him. The way he held me, the way he kissed me, the way his hands were roaming all over my body, I have never ever felt so alive before.  

I was still sitting on the same place; it’s been two hours, since he left. My tears have dried now, I went up to my room, and pulled the covers.

It was 6:30am. I better start getting ready for school before I get late as usual. Luckily I was on time I parked my car in the parking. I made my way towards my locker, I looked at the time table it was arts class Jaden was there in arts. I could talk to him about last night I thought. But what am I going to say to him, I debated. May be apologize for taking things so far. But I have no idea whether he will listen to me or not. His words are still fresh he hates me, why would he listen to me. Tears started to form in my eyes thinking about events of last night how beautiful everything was and on what note it ended.

I was quiet early there were hardly any students, I was before time. I waited in the cafeteria for my friends; I have no idea how will they react to the events of last night. All that drama at Aaron’s party must have spoiled everyone’s mood.  I just wish that at least my friends are not mad at me.

I saw Elizabeth coming. She smiled warmly at me; she was wearing a cute pink T shirt and black jeans, with a black and golden colour bracelet. She was looking super cute. I smiled back and gestured her to sit beside me. I looked her, she was indeed beautiful, and was a simple girl Sammy is a lucky guy, I thought.

‘So are you all right today?’ Elizabeth asked.

‘I guess I am, is everyone angry at me’ I asked with a raised eyebrow.

‘Well initially they were but now they are not, they are all your friends they love you a lot’

‘Yes I know, I have disappointed them all’, I said with tear filled eyes.

‘No, no don’t feel this way, it happens sometimes, it’s going to be fine’ she consoled me, by wrapping one arm around me.

The way she consoled me, I was feeling much better after it. I felt relieved that at least my friends are not angry with me, I was happy for that part. 

‘You know we do stupid things in love, just like you did, last night’ Elizabeth said. With that same warm smile not leaving her face.

I was starlet by her words, how did she know? Was it written all over my face last night? I wondered my beatings were so fast.

‘No, no nothing like that’, I lied not wanting to meet her gaze.

‘Its fine, I know your feelings for him. Last night everything was so clear to me, you never drink but last night you were drunk completely only to make him feel the same way. What all you were feeling when he was close to some other women’.

‘Yes I was jealous, I was beyond jealous, I was mad at him for behaving in such a way in front of me’. I finally confessed.

‘Don’t worry it happens sometimes in love, it’s going to be fine’ she said

I was feeling much better after talking to Elizabeth she was a very lovely girl.  

All my friends arrived and no one was angry with me, I was at peace. Jaden was nowhere to be seen he had not come to school yet.  All of them including me went to our respective classes.

I was sitting at the third bench from front, Jace was not sitting with me, and she was sitting at the back, our favourite place. Today I wanted to divert my mind from events of last night, which kept popping up in my head from time to time.

As everyone was settling down, Jaden entered the class. He came searched for a place and he sat at the row beside mine. Not even once he looked towards me. It was again we were not talking to each other.

Seeing Jaden angry with me, was one of the worst things for me I was so upset seeing him this way. I was sitting in the class but my full attention was on him. I did not feel like studying today, I should have sat at the back with Jace. It was really hard to concentrate with Jaden around, it always is. I glanced at him one more time, his gaze were fixed on the board.

From past one hour he had not looked anywhere but on board, it seemed that suddenly studying had become his favourite hobby.  He did not even look towards me, not even once.

Finally the arts class was over; I slowly collected my stuff and packed it inside my bag.  And when I looked towards him again, he just swung his bag on his left shoulder. He left from the class like a strome as he walked passed me I could feel that aura of him which clearly stated how angry he was from me.

With a heavy heart, I dragged myself out of the class. I reached at the steps, and started going down. I looked, stretching my neck down near the end of steps Jaden was standing, and his back was visible to me.  With heavy footsteps I continued to down, I had barely come down two steps. I looked at him again; he was looking back at me.

His head was turned up at my direction. That look on his face, was so mesmerizing to me. That one look and all I could feel was tiny sparks that ignited fires in my stomach. The way he was looking at me, made me melt right at the same spot.  And believe me, that moment, that time, that instant I fell in love with him once again. That look was enough to stop my heart’s beatings. I would have given all my prized possessions just for that ‘single look’.

His eyes were penetrating deep inside mine, and this time that spark he ignited inside me, just with that one look, had burned me completely inside out.  Burned in his love, and burned in his desires. Who knew that a single look from this man had the capacity of turning me into ashes?

I so desperately wanted to reach out and capture all of him in my embrace, but I knew I just couldn’t. He was still looking at me, I lowered my gaze, and he was breaking me again by not even doing anything. He was such an integral part of my life.

I wished that this fire inside me, always remain the same. Forever and ever till my last breath.