His darks

Flashback 13

 I was walking away from the place, I realized all eyes were fixed on me. I was ashamed, very ashamed about whatever happened there. My head was spinning; I wanted to go home as soon as possible. I should have not consumed alcohol, now my head was literally blasting with pain.

I went to Aaron’s room; I wiped away all the traces of water. I opened the cupboard and took out a red t – shirt which was very big for me and shorts. I quickly got changed and kept my wet cloths in a plastic bag. when I came out of his room I saw Jaden was standing outside. He looked me with an expression which made me feel all the more guilty.

He said ‘I am waiting down; give me your car keys’.

 I did as I was told I gave him my car keys. He quickly turned away without saying anything. I was feeling so dumb, standing here in Aaron’s t-shirt and funky looking shorts and holding my wet cloths in one hand. I was here for his birthday party and I don’t even know how I ended up in such a state. My wet hair dripping, all my makeup got washed away.  I must have looked a complete idiot at that time.  I was walking out, I kept my gaze down not wanting to face anyone else. Everyone was looking at me. Suddenly Aaron came in front of me, I was searching for words.

With a feeble voice I said, ‘look Aaron I am very sorry for such a terrible behavior, I didn’t mean any of that’. And I looked away as tears were threatening to spill. Clutching my plastic bag all the more tight. I was so tired of my own self now that whatever I did ultimately turned out to be something so horrible.

‘Hey, hey it’s all right. You don’t have to be sorry; it’s completely fine with me’, he replied.

 His words felt good to hear, and very soothing for my ears. I hugged him tightly; he patted my head like an elder brother in return. I was relieved at least I knew he was not upset because of me, after how I behaved at his party. He came out with me till my car where Jaden was waiting impatiently for me. I reached for the front door of the car, and Aaron opened it for me. He was such a sweetheart. I smiled weakly at him and once again apologized for my behavior.

when I was settled inside, I waved Aaron good bye. I looked towards Jaden his knuckles had turned white he was holding the starring so tightly. Why was he angry with me, he had no right to after whatever he had done to me. He hit the gas pedal and within minutes we were on road. There was a strange silence inside the car. We were both very quiet the only sound was of our breathing. I was very exhausted my head was paining very badly. I buried my face in my palms and sat still.

‘Are you all right, do you need anything?’ he asked.

I chose not to say anything I was still angry with him for throwing me inside the pool. I was sitting in the same position my head buried in my palms.  He was about to say something else. I felt really sick, something churned inside my stomach. I gestured to stop the car by patting with one hand on the starring wheel, while the other hand was tightly sealing my mouth. He quickly pulled over.

when the car halted I opened the door as quickly as I could. And I sat down at the side of road, vomiting all over the place. Jaden was leaning by my side; his one hand was rubbing my back. While the other one had held my open hair back carefully so that they don’t get spoiled in my puke. I puked so much that I felt like I would pass any moment. When I stopped Jaden ran towards the car and was back with a water bottle. Now where did that come from? I wondered. But it was not that important at that moment. He opened the bottle cap, and made me drink the water he also washed my face with his hands. And he wiped my face with his handkerchief.

‘You ok now?’ he asked sounding very concerned.  

‘No..!! My head is spinning so much’ I said.