« saeyoung x reader »
dear (y/n),
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry about everything.
i'm sorry for letting you down.
for letting you feel alone, even when i'm right next to you.
in a way, i guess it's none of our fault for things to end up like this.
if destiny really did want to pair is together, maybe you'd still be in my arms after a long day of work.
but i guess you were meant to find someone else to spend your life with other than me.
do you find it unfair?
i do.
for eleven days, i fall in love, i tell them that i won't let them go, but in the end, they just slip through my fingers like sand.
just like that, i'm all alone.
i know it's pretty weird of me to write a letter and all, especially regarding to breakups, but i'm writing this because you made me feel a lot more special compared to other girls that i met.
most of them... they just play.
it doesn't really go much further from that-but you? you brought out so much more. made me feel extra special. thank you.
but i guess all good things must come to an end. because now, i don't have you anymore.
i really hope you're happy with the other guys... especially yoosung. he's always had a crush on you. i know he can make you the happiest girl alive.
or maybe zen-i mean, he's cocky as fuck, but he's the most caring person i've ever met. if you caught his heart, don't let him go. i'm sure he won't, either.
i could go on and on for the others, but that would kinda ruin the whole point of this letter, right?
but maybe... you settled on someone from your world. that would be so much better-i mean, at least you won't have to fall in love with a bunch of fictional characters. i know it's pretty fucking painful.
but i can't help but ask why.
why can't you look at me the way you look at them?
is it because you wanted guys who can spend most of their time with you?
i mean, i can do that, but i fear that the time i'll give you will never be enough.
or maybe it was because i'm not as attractive as zen? or as helpful as yoosung... or as rich as jumin?
i really do love you,
a lot.
and even if you can't be there for me, then i'll always be there for you no matter what.
i guess in the end, mutual feelings doesn't matter anymore.
what matters to me the most is to make you happy, and to keep you safe.
from me to you,
saeyoung
Idk what im doing
