Big Bangs, Prohibition, and a Sugar Daddy

Mother Approves

As I rode back to my Mother's apartment with Luke, I didn't feel like making small talk. I had a lot to think about. My feelings about Luke were mixed. I enjoyed his touch, his kiss. I wanted to be touched, kissed again by Luke. It also frightened me. I had never felt that kind of desire before. I was disturbed by the way I seemed to lose control of my thoughts.

"Why don't you pack when you get home." Luke suggested. "I can take you back to my home. We can satisfy our desires tonight."

"I am not some harlot." I might have weakened, but my resolve was fired up by Luke's suggestion. "Am I to handle your household finances, or be some play thing for you."

"Both." Luke replied.

"I am willing to work for you, but I will not be your harlot." That he thought I was some animal who couldn't understand and control the impulses I felt was his mistake. "You assume too much."

"I'm not asking you to become a harlot. Harlots sleep with anyone. You will only sleep in my bed. As a kept woman." Luke was still assuming I would sleep with him.

"I am not a woman." I stated a simple fact. "I might not be a man, but I am not a woman either."

"As I said before. You are unique, my little animal. Man or woman, possibly both, or neither. It doesn't matter. You are still controlled by the same impulses as an animal. I proved that while we were at my house." Luke sounded amused again.

I was not. "Stop calling me a little animal. I am not an animal. Nor am I yours."

"Is there another who can understand how unique you are. Appreciate you for who you are?" I felt my breath quicken. "I want you. If it is a challenge, I will meet that challenge. I can be ruthless when it comes to getting what I want."

"Are you saying you would violate me?" I had never been actually afraid of Luke, until now. There was something in his voice. A threat.

"No." Luke said it with a firmness. "That would be too easy. A waste. I might have you under my complete control for a moment, but only that moment. No, I want you for longer than that. To give yourself over to me."

"What if I say no? Will you violate me then?" I felt this shiver that I had before. A strange mix of fear and a bit of euphoria.

"That is the challenge, isn't it." Luke gave me that hungry look he has been giving me since he found out about my unique condition. "To get you to say yes, that is what I have to do to win. To have you for as long as I desire, which will be some time. To make you my little animal."

"That will never happen. I've told you. I am not an animal. I can control my impulses. This is a challenge that you will not win." I assured Luke. "I have a strong will. If you think this is some game, I'll assure you that I can play and win this little game."

"Oh, my little animal. I will truly enjoy playing with you." Luke laughed.

I wondered if there was a double meaning there. That he was not thinking of playing the game with me, but winning the game and playing with my body afterwards. Luke was arrogant enough to believe he could win this game, but I am confident in my control over myself. There was nothing he could do that would entice me into his bed.

By the time I arrived home, Carol had already taken a taxi back from the hospital. Mother and Carol had been sitting at the table when I came into the apartment.

Luke had escorted me upstairs. Mrs. Markel peaked out her door to see Luke and myself. She closed it quickly. He stopped outside the door, kissing me in the hall. It had the usual affect of quickening my breath, making me feel flushed. Would I ever stop doing that? It annoyed me.