Scars We Bury || On Hold

3//The Party

Chapter 3
"My scars are never my strength. They are just as a reminder of how horrible my life is."

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Wednesday, September 17, 2015
Dear Diary,
I wake up today more tired than any day before. My whole body aching again like every day and there seems no end for that pain. I go to the bathroom and I try to hide my scars but I fail to hide the limp I have in my legs. I wear my dark hoodie and pull the hood over my head. I walk downstairs which is really hard for me but what's new in that. It has always been hard for me.

At School.........
I enter the school and I make my way to class. I sit beside Emily.

"What's wrong with your legs?" She asks concerned.

"I....ummm...I...fell down the stairs....yes I fell down the stairs," I say and she nods. The teacher then enters and she starts bluffing like every day on things I haven't really studied until now. I am really getting bored. I look beside me to see Emily so focused. I guess she is a nerd and I guess I am in the wrong place. I raise my hands.

"Yes?" The teacher says.

"Can I use the bathroom?" I ask.

"I don't know, Can you?" She says and I roll my eyes.

"When I was using 'can'. I was using it's secondary model form as a verbal modifier asking for permission, as opposed to expressing ability. I thought since you were a teacher you would know that." I say shrugging my shoulders and the teacher is completely shocked at what I said. I stand up, I take my bag and I make my way out of class. I walk to the same spot and I find Luke there to smoking like usual. I go and I stand beside him.

"How ya doing, asshole?" I ask him smiling.

"I am good and you bitch?" He says smiling too.

"I am good too."

"A cigarette?" He asks me as he puts his hand in his pocket then he hands me a cigarette.

"Thank you," I say as I take the cigarette and lit it. We stand to smoke for a long time. We didn't say even one word to each other. We just stood smoking and looking at the sky until it is home time. While we are standing, a girl passes by us giving us death glares. Who is that bitch I wonder?

"I have to go now. See you later, asshole."

"See you later, bitch." He says and I walk out of the parking lot making my way to home but Emily stops me.

"Scarlett!" She calls out for me and I turn. I go back to her.

"Yes, Emily?"

"A friend of mine is holding a party tonight for the whole school at her house. Are you coming?"

"I don't think I can. I am not really a party person."

"It's just one party, Scarlett. Please come."

"These things are not really my cup of tea, Emily. I am sorry."

"Scarlett! Please do it for me. I don't want to be alone. You know how no one loves me in that school. Please, Can you come?" She pleads. I stand silently for a few minutes before smile at her and I nod.

"Is that a yes?" She asks excitedly.

"Yep, It is," I say.

"Thank you so much, Scarlett. I will never forget that."

"No problem, Emily."

"Okay meet you tonight." She says then we both go in separate ways. I go home and luckily Jack is not there. I go to my room. I take off my clothes and I hop into my bathtub letting the cold water wash away the pain I am feeling.