Scars We Bury || On Hold

27//Drowning...

Chapter 27

"A month without her is like a month drowning in the ocean."
~Luke Charles

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2 weeks after the incident.....
Tuesday May 28, 2016

Luke

"You worthless....!"

"Enough Dad. Don't you dare put your hands again on her!!"

"And who are you, son? Mummy's good boy."

"That's way better than being you."

"Shut up or I will bury you in your place along with her."

"Don't you get sick of this? Cause I am. I am tried of you showing us how we mean nothing to you."

"You are nothing, son. You are just a drug addict. You are weak. And this woman, she is broken. I made sure of that."

"You are sick. Just try to be broken like that woman. I promise you will be better." I say teasing him as he made me so angry. He comes back at me with several punches in my stomach. I dodge some of them but he brings me to the ground. I punch him in defence making his nose bleed. He takes off his belt from his pants in anger and he hits me with it. I groan in pain. I try to get up but he kicks me in my abdomen causing me to fall down on my face. He continues hitting me with the belt in his hands. I close my eyes and I give in to the pain. I give in to the darkness. I deserve this pain. I deserve to feel it after what I have done to Scarlett. My mother screaming at my father makes my heart break. She doesn't deserve all of this. And that brings me to Scar. She screamed at me that night cause I was hurting her. She slapped and punched me cause she was in fear of what I would do next just like my mom is in fear of what my dad will do next and how far he will go.

Am I just like my father? Would I turn up to be like him? All those questions have never really left my mind while my father is beating the shit out of me. I am feeling pain and it's both emotionally and physically. Can it be hard? Can my life get ruined anymore? I have lost everything. Do I have anything left? Do I have a reasonable reason to live? Maybe. I have lost Scar but I still have my mother and I can't leave her alone with my father. And she can't bring herself to leave my father so I guess I am stuck in this forever.

The physical pain suddenly stops. I open my eyes and I don't find my father. I just find my mother crying her eyes out beside me.
"I am sorry." She says crying so hard and unable to take her breaths. I take a deep breath and I take her hands in mine. "It's gonna be okay." I say in an attempt to calm her down.

"It's not, Luke. He has gone too far this time."

"He always gets too far Mom but I got used to it."

"I am the one who should be in your place now, Luke. I am the one who did this mistake by marrying him and I am the one who is doing another mistake by staying with him."

"Mom, I will never let you be in my place one day while I am still breathing and alive. The only chance that you could ever be in my place is if I am dead." I say and my mom cries more. I try to solace her but she is so sad and so hurt. She is in so much pain. I am in so much pain for her. It breaks me to see her like this. It really hurts.

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2 hours later.......
I made sure my Mom was safe and sleeping. I cleaned myself up although my whole body is red and full of bruises and cuts. I wear my clothes and I take my mobile , car keys and wallet. I head out of the house. I drive around the city not knowing where to go when I suddenly find myself in front of her house. I get out from the car and I make my way towards her front door. I stand staring at it for a few moments trying to gather the courage and knock on her door before I go back to my car again. I get inside the car and I look up at her window. The lights are off and the house is silent.