Scars We Bury || On Hold

36//Metanoia

Chapter 36

Matanoia;
The journey of changing one's mind, heart, self, or way of life.

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Luke
I slowly open my eyes. I feel like the action of my eyes opening took a lot of energy from me. My body is so weak and I can't even move my hands. It's like I am chained. My eyes scan the room around me. I see Mom standing beside me and on her left side, stands Elijah, my cousin. Everything is a confusion. I don't know what happened. I don't remember coming here. The only thing I do remember is Scar. I dreamt of her. She was beside me crying and stroking my hair like I was gone and because I was in a dream, I couldn't touch her or even move my mouth. She muttered so many words in my ear and I wanted so bad to hold her hand or ask her why she was crying but everything seemed impossible. And it was a dream. Because everything after that dream came black and now I open my eyes and I find Mom and Elijah. No sign of Scar.

"What happened?" I mutter those words and again, I feel my energy slowly fading away. Mom holds my hand and she sits beside me on the bed. She kisses me on my cheek and forehead. She gently strokes my hair and I can feel her wet tears on my face. Now I am sure, I did something wrong.

"You are okay. That's what matters." My mom says trying to hold back her tears. I want to tell her what happened. How did I come here? Why am I here in a hospital room with all those machines around me but I can't bring myself to say anything. I just stare back at her eyes trying to take a hint.

"He is okay now, Aunt Sam. You can go have some coffee or something. You haven't slept well. Go have some rest." Elijah says as he caresses mom's shoulder but Mom shakes her head in disagreement.

"I won't leave him." She says firmly and Elijah gives me this look of telling her to go rest so I try to hold her hand to reassure but my hand quickly slips from hers. So, I just nod while staring back at her eyes. She sighs in annoyance.

"Don't worry about him. I won't leave him Aunt and don't forget that Scarlett won't leave him too." Elijah says and my eyes wide at the mention of Scar. Scar is here! Elijah notice how surprised I have come.

"Yeah, she is here Luke. She has been waiting to see you for a century." Elijah says. Mom gives me a kiss and tells me that she will let Scar in so we would talk. Elijah jokes around then they both leave the room. The door opens and Scar comes rushing inside. I can't help but smile at her as she comes running towards me. She throws her arms around me and she tries to hug me as it's actually not easy to hug someone who is lying on a hospital bed unable to move.

I close my eyes and I try to savor in her smell that I missed so much. I try to feel her touch and take her in. We haven't been close for so long and I have been feeling that she took my soul away with her when she left. So the feeling of my soul getting back in me now is something else. It's the first time I feel that I need her so much. I want so much to blame her for leaving me. I want her to promise me that she won't leave me again. I want to tell her that I am selfish and that I won't let her go. I wanna take away all the pain I have caused her and start a new life with her. I want us to be together forever.

"I love you so much." Scar says as she pulls away from the hug. She stares at my eyes and she never breaks our stare. Her eyes just tell me everything she wants to say. Her eyes hold happiness and at the same time sadness and regret. I want to tell her not to blame herself but it's like a cat got my tongue and the words just froze there. I sigh.

She presses her lips on mine and she gives me the sweetest kiss ever. It's not about desire or lust this time. It's about love and passion. It's her way of showing me how much she misses me and how much she truly loves me.