Scars We Bury || On Hold

35//Destruction...

Chapter 35

"She ruined her life and the life of others just because she believed in eternal love and redemption. That was her mistake.  A mistake she is paying for now. A mistake that will lead her to her destruction and the destruction of others."

~Haidy Wazeery

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Later......
It has been an hour or more since we arrived at the hospital but it feels like forever. Tears won't stop escaping my eyes and my hands don't stop trembling. The heart ache never stops and the feeling of losing Luke never fades away. Everything is getting replayed in my mind. The memories of us together never leave me alone. Every second I spent away from him, trying to gather my shit. I am regretting it now. I focused on my pain and my shit that I forgot his. I forgot that he might be in pain. And this hurts more. The memories have no end and so does the pain. It's all consuming me and I feel like there is no end. I have been standing on my legs for so long now, waiting for any nurse or any doctor to leave the operation room but they never do. I slowly slide down the wall behind me till I reach the floor. I can no longer feel my legs but that pain is nothing to what I am feeling now.

I take my mobile out of my pocket, still my tears bluring my vision. I see the time and it's past midnight. I find too many missed calls and texts from Jess and Em but they are all assuming that Luke and I are happy now and having fun together. They don't know that I am on the verge of losing him now. I try to take several deep breaths to calm myself down. I wipe off my tears and I stare at the picture of Luke and I together on my phone. I remember that night. It was New Year's Party last year. It was one of the best nights of my life. I can't lose him. If something happens to him, I will be gone.

The phone falls out of my hands and when I grab it, I realize that Nate is calling me. I take too much time before I gather the courage and answer him.

"Scar! Where have you been? Did you guys seriously forget us? Or are you two busy having fun?" He says and I can notice the funny voice of him laughing. It suddenly annoys me but it makes me sob harder after I stopped sobbing for like 2 solid minutes.

"What's wrong Scar? Are you crying?" He asks, his voice getting worried.

"Scar!" He calls my name. I shut my eyes in pain and the phone slips out of my hands and lands on the floor. I start sobbing hysterically till I find no tears. I reach the point of numbness where I can feel nothing. Too much pain just knocked the feelings and life out of me. I can still hear Nate's voice but it's distant. My vision gets blurry and I see black. Everything is black. It's just a few minutes before I open my eyes again and return to reality. I think I blacked out for just 2 minutes.

I take my phone from the floor and I am still surprised that Nate is on the line, calling my name. Those two minutes felt like forever. I don't know what happened and I am not even curious to know what happened.

"Nate." I mutter in a low raspy voice. I even have no voice left. My energy is drained just like my soul and everything else.

"Finally! Are you okay?"

"I am in Saint Marie's Hospital. I think Luke overdosed." I say before I hang up. I wrap my arms around my knees and I bury my head in my legs. I start crying again.

20 minutes later........

"Scar!" My eyes flick open when I hear a familiar voice calling me. I raise my head and I see Nate standing beside me. I try to get up but I end up falling back to the ground.

"Easy there." Nate says , giving me his hand. I take it and he pulls me up from the floor. When he looks at me in the eyes, I can see that he is hurt too. Tears start rolling down my cheeks and I can't control them. Nate pulls me to his chest. I cling into it, searching for anything or anyone to keep me strong like I should be. I find nothing. No one and nothing can keep me strong like Luke.