Damaged Heart

chapter eight

August

I been fucking around with Mercedes a lot and I know it isn't good but she's addictive. I'm just glad we havnt got caught yet , even though if we did , it wouldn't change anything besides people's opinion of us.

Sometimes I wish my dad and Shellie would break up so it wouldn't be as awkward to be doing thangs with her but ... It is what it is.
I had woke up late today so I decided not to go to school. I got up, took a shower. After 20 minutes , I got out, dried off and put on some boxers, sweatpants and some jordan flip flops. I went downstairs when I saw my dad on the couch.

"Sup!" I said as I sat on the other couch. My dad head nodded.
"Hey man, how's it going ? Why you ain't at school?" He asked.
"Woke up late!" I said, getting on my phone, checking accounts .
"Oh.....well I needed to talk to you bout something!" He said making me look up.
"Sup?" I asked as I locked my phone .
"I'm gonna need you to go stay with your mom for a week?"
"What why?"

"2 reasons..1 she's in a stage where she needs temporary supervision and 2 me and Shellie was going on a cruise for a week and she didn't wanna leave you alone here...you know with the girls!" He said, I shook my head, thinking bout stuff I gotta do that I can't just drop like that.
"I don't know bout that pops !" I said leaning back.

"Wasn't a question...we leaving today so start packing , we won't leave til you do!"
"The fuck? I got stuff to do and I can't just drop that shit!"
"Nigga the fuck you talking to !"
"You motherfucka, maybe if you would've just stayed with ma , she wouldn't be in this 'stage' "

"Nigga get yo ass upstairs and stop trying to lecture me bout not leaving that shit called your mom!" He yelled. I clenched my jaw not to just shoot that nigga brains right now. But I don't have time to even fuck with him no mo.
"Whatever fuck it you bitch ass nigga!" I said going up the stairs, slamming my room door.

Mercedes

Chris was standing here looking at me with a confused face. I sighed as I began to speak.
"Umm Chris ... I think we should break up.." I said as I pulled my hair, his face dropped.
"W-what ? Why ??" He asked,I shook my head.
"I..I just don't think we're connected .." I said , he furrowed his eyebrows.

"Like sexually, physically, mentally, emotionally what?" He asked.
"It's complicated .. I still love you.. We just need some space, maybe see other people!" I said and kissed his cheek. He nodded as he walked backward.

"Ok Mercedes !" He scoffed and went inside the school. That was hard but not as hard as I thought, I took a deep breathe as 100 pounds was lifted off me and I was free.. As I thought bout my freeness , a smile creeped on my face and I went into the school. As soon as I walked in , I accidentally bumped into karrueche.

"Ugh.." I said as I began walking past her.
"Excuse you , lil hoe !" She said. I shook my head as I kept walking, I didn't even feel like letting her kill my vibes today. I went to my locker and got my books out, when I noticed I havnt seen Chandra or Alyssa then I got a text.

Chandra]: I'm not coming today, going on family vaca but I'll be back in time for your birthday :)
Alyssa]: ain't coming, sick :( ..hope I be better for you big 1.8. Day :/

I sighed as I locked my phone. Whole week by myself. I'm popular but I didn't talk to many people besides Chandra and Alyssa . I went to my class quick as I heard the bell rung.

Lunch...

It was really quiet around me without my girls, the other cheerleaders were talking on the other end but I didn't wanna talk. Chris has been staring at me all day, I know he probably wants to talk or if anything find out why I wanted to break up but I wasn't up for it. I was just playing with my broccoli as I looked at it.