Damaged Heart

chapter forty six

Mercedes

I had just took a shower and got dressed in some spandex shorts, a crew neck and some no show socks.

I heard Drew crying so I went over to his room and picked him up out of his crib, calming him. I got him out some clothes and took him a bath with a fresh diaper before gettin him dressed.

He was wide awake so I took him downstairs with me , getting out his formula. I fixed him a bottle and put it in the microwave, all with him on my hip. Once it was done, I took it out and went and sat on the couch, starting to feed him.

"Drink it all for mommy." I said as he sucked. Once he was done, I burped him and put him in his swinger. I got on my laptop.

"Aye babe what ya doing?" August asked coming downstairs.

"Looking for a job and couple counselor." I said , tapping away. He stopped drinking his water as he looked at me.

"Fa who?"

"Job for me and the counselor for both of us."

"I'd be damn if I'm going."

"August." I said looking at him.

He went and sat on the other couch.

"I don't need no help and I shol' don't want no random muttfucka In my bu'ness." He said furrowing his eyebrows.

"You're going!"

"The fuck we need a counselor fa?"

"I don't feel we're connected enough emotionally and our relationship revolves around sex." I said , he rolled his eyes.

"It don't revolve around it we're just sexually active . The fuck I'm connected to you emotionally."

"I didn't say you wasn't August gosh I said not enough as we need to be."

"How much do we néed to be."

"More!"

"More?"

"More."

"Wow." He scoffed. "I don't want you at a job." He added.

"Don't start August."

"All I néed is one more drop."

"August don't start with that shit you know how I feel bout it." I yelled , glaring at him.

"Who you yelling at?" He said.

"You motherfucker who you think."

"Mercedes calm down befo' you get yo ass whooped." I scoffed.

"Whatever." Drew started crying, August took him out his swinger and held him up to his chest. He went upstairs with him and closed the door. I sighed as I stayed on the computer.

After a while I came across a couple counselor but not the job yet. This is when I wish I would've went to college. I closed the laptop as I took a deep breathe and laid back with my hand on my head.

August came back down with a sleep Drew, going to his room. He came back empty handed going back to the room . I sighed as I got up, going upstairs , climbing in bed beside him.

"I'm sorry August." I said . He looked at me then back at the Tv.

"It's wuteva.." He mumbled. "I didn't mean to snap bout that eitha." He added. I kissed him.

"So you're gonna go?"

"Ehhh." He hesitated. "Don't know bout that."

"For me? Please." He looked at me.