Was Never Enough

It's okayy

Alyssa:

I just stood there for a second seeing their car speed away . The car soon turned right  and was out of our sight but still I wasn't able to move from the spot. I could feel him around me , his eyes looking back at me and his genuine smile .

I know that he is doing everything for Lisa but I can't really help the way I feel . Lisa tapped me on the shoulders.

" hey Ally come on let's just head back . Okay" she gave me a knowing smile. Like she knows what I was thinking. I smiled back and we went in .

Soon enough mumma called out for Lisa and then she hugged her real tight .

" oh darling I am so happy for you " she kissed her temple and then hugged me to . And went on chatting about how lucky she is and how happy they were . Lisa felt really uneasy and shifted her gaze between mom , dad and then finally me .

I was just about to ask her if she is okay but soon Lisa had to go somewhere. So she excused her self .

Then even I went back to my room . Finally trying my best to not cry and create a scene.  I know the moment they'll know about my feelings,  they'll start thinking about the marriage again . Besides Blake would never choose to marry me . He'll be way more happy with Lisa than he would ever be with me . And they'll look perfect together.

I decided on calling Jessica and telling her everything. I wanted all of this to be out of my system . She picked on the second bell

" hey Ally so you are finally free from the hotty " oh God this was a really bad decision cause just hearing her voice made me cry .

" Jessica can you please come ......like right now" I managed somehow to say between my sobs. 

" oh my God , don't cry Ally.  I'll just be there in like 20 minutes max and beat the shit out of the person who made you feel like this."

I hang up and waited for her. I had always had this strong built of character for everyone around me . No one can even imagine that I cry so much but I can't help it with Jessica. She really understands how I feel . She just knows me inside out and there is no shame when it comes to best buds.

Just like she said she was there in 20 minutes and I took no time in telling her everything.  I didn't let go of any details.  I wanted everything out of my system and she is one of the best listeners. 

" oh Ally, why didn't you call me earlier. And I think you should confront Lisa about this maybe she would back off and if not even that then she would atleast do something "

" it's not like she came between us . She always wanted to be with him, for him to like her . She had this huge crush on him since forever and do you think she would sacrifice all that for me ."

" Ally you have always sacrificed everything for your family , for her . And if she was the one that would have been asking for the sacrifice won't you be the one to do it. Also the choice is not up to Lisa to decide , it's with Blake. And I know if he gets to know the really you , he would choose you ." She said clapping her hands like it's the best plan. But it was just the love that she has for me which makes her say stuff like this.

" I know you Jessica.  You love me but honestly he would never choose me over her. She is perfect and an enhanced version of my own self. She is the one that all of us look to . And has anyone ever preferred me over her or even think about me in some way . No Jessica no . And I  can't just be the second choice of the person I love. I am tried of not being the first choice. So let's just let the things go as it is ." I never realised when I raised my voice. But the feelings that I have for years can't just end up to not being anything .

I looked up to meet her eyes and now even she was in tears.
" oh Ally I am so sorry for you. Ally it doesn't matter who chooses her over you but just always remember that there are people who would in a second trade thousands of Lisa for you . And I would be the first one to be standing in that line. "

I nodded but I wasn't able to say anything . Cause I already know that even if a person tries to trade thousands of Alyssa for one Lisa. They won't even get her finger nail. But I can't just upset Jessica further more.

She brought me into a hug.
" everything is gonna be fine.  It's all gonna be fine Ally."

" I know Jessica. It's okay . It really is "

Later we decided on to watch some shitty TV to calm our nerves.  Later she went back to her place after I told her that I'll be fine for the millionth time.

After getting myself ready for the reality I headed downstairs, just to find mom dad and Lisa discussing something .
Then I joined them too and saw their happy faces while discussing the marriage venue and stuff .
They called me to discuss about the wedding date.
" I discussed about it with Mr Jensen and he wanted it to take place some where around next week or the week after that as from next month onwards Blake would shift permanently to Seattle to look after his business over there . So they wanted this marriage to take place before he shifts." My dad spoke really proudly as Blake was his son already .

" Oh that's lovely " mom said holding Lisa's hands .
" but dad it's really soon and I wanted to tell you about ...." Lisa was interrupted by dad .
" No Lisa it's not at all early and they have waited for so long already and what do you need the time for , you have already achieved whatever you wanted to and have taken alot of my burden, now it's your time to live a peaceful and happy life"
" but papa Ally has her exam starting next week and they wouldn't end until the week after that . I want Ally to be there for my big day and not giving some stupid exam and besides how will she manage with her studies and it's her final year. Please ask them to shift the date " I was into tears hearing her concern for me .

Dad thought for a bit and said
" Lisa the wedding would take place within these two weeks but we'll manage the time so that Alyssa would be able to join us and I know she'll manage her studies somehow . Won't you Alyssa "

Now the eyes were on me and both my parents were expecting me to agree with them . So I did agree by just nodding my head .
" so it's final that the wedding would take place two weeks from now and I'll discuss the rest with Mr Jensen. "
He stated hugging Lisa and mom hugged me .

Soon there was ruckus all over the house for the wedding prepration .