Was Never Enough

My gem

Blake: I was in shock for a moment as she turned and hugged me . I wasn't able to see her face but I knew that she was crying . I quickly wrapped my hands around her and pulled her more closer , giving her the assurance that everything would be fine . She didn't budge for a few moments and kept on crying .

I felt really bad for her and was ashamed of myself that I don't even know how to stop her from crying .

"I know that the meeting was important and now we are left with nothing but we were as it is losing the offer if you would had never taken the initiative and so bravely presented it front of everyone . This was your first time and you did well accordingly . It doesn't even matter that we get the funds or not . I'll try to look for some job for a while and after that everything is gonna be fine . " I said to her .

So that she could understand that it's not her fault rather it's mine . I was the one who ignored it and took it so lightly .

" Blake I I ..... www we ..." she said sobbing . I knew she'll just take it on her and will go on crying she always does that . My gem.

" Don't over think Al and I think you are perfect the way you are and none of it is your fault so just relax . Okay " I said kissing her head and placing her head on my chest while mine was rested over hers .

She suddenly shifted a bit so that now we were facing each other as she said
"But Blake we ..... I mean they .....accepted our offer and they are ready to provide us with as much fund as we asked and they might even give us more if we require"

I stared at her for a long while interpreting each and every word .

" Yes Blake they have accepted it and .....they want to ......officially sign the papers tomorrow" she said between her tears and she smiled in the end for me to really trust her for it .

Without a word I just pulled her to me again . I hugged her tight the same way she did earlier . I snuggled into her neck and she hugged me back .

" Alyssa you don't even know what you gave me, it's my biggest dream to start my own project and I finally get to do this just because of you . I don't even know how much I owe you . You just gave the world to me . " I said while the tears thretend to come any moment .

From a very young age, I had this business model in mind but it was rejected manier times and this was the last time that I aimed for it . I invested all of my savings for it but never told anyone .

I had lost hopes yesterday as I knew that I would get rejected again and it's of no use but Al just did something out of this world . I don't know how but she just changed my world in a second .

I pulled away but just a bit so that her face was right in front of me . I gently brought my hand towards her face and gently wiped the tears away . She was so delicate I was afraid that I would break her if I pressed harder . She kept blinking and I just rubbed my thumb on her cheek .

I didn't even realised when we come so close that our lips where only an inch apart . My hand rested on her cheek and the other hand was placed besides her for support as I leaned forward.

I could almost feel her sharp intake of breath and her eyes landed up on the space that was left between us .

She started shifting to create some space between us but I never let that happen as I placed my other hand on her back to stop her . She looked back at my hand on her back and the moment she turned I brought my lips to hers and kissed her .

She was frozen for a minute and I thought my decision was wrong but the moment I started to pull away, I felt her hand rested on my chest, just above my heart as if she was listening to my heart beat and the other went and intertwined in my hair and she started moving her lips at the same pace .

This was the first time she ever kissed me back and God I wanted to save each and every second of it .

Our lips moved in perfect sync . I then rubbed my fingers on her thigh as I pulled her up and placed her on my lap to deepen the kiss . She didn't hesitated and sat there and pulled my t-shirt with more strength as if she was trying to control her feelings .

But I never wanted her to hide her feelings anymore . Then I angled my face to deepen the kiss further and pulled her lower lip between my teeth. A moan escaped her mouth which lead me to go on further .

Then I licked her lower lip, asking her permission to invade her mouth and she obliged . The same moment I pulled on to her hair which lead to another moan and I loved the sound of her moan . It was melody to my ears and I wanted her to go on moaning until she calls out my name.

We parted to take a breath. Both of us were panting and I looked up to her eyes which were shining and were fixed on my lips . The moment she met my eyes, she blushed harder . Her already red face become more redder and I just smirked .

Without thinking any further I kissed her lips again and then I started kissed her cheek and then the space behind her ear and I earned a louder moan from her and she started shifting on my lap and that to on the right places which made me go harder .

If she kept moving this way I might lose my control and I don't want to scare her away with my roughness I had to be gentle .

Grabbing her thigh I said " Al stop moving otherwise I wont be able to control myself any further " She again went rigid but at the end I pulled onto her earlob .

As she was told  she stayed still without even moving a bit so I pulled her more closer to me and she wrapped her legs around me. It felt so good . She was just perfect.

I then shifted a bit downwards towards her shoulder kissing her neck slowly . I pulled on to her hair and she moved her face backwards giving me more access . The moment I went for her collar bone she said

" oh Blake " and she moaned again and I was just out of control . I kissed her lips again but now with more passion and she pulled onto my t-shirt more and I knew she wanted to feel me but the shy girl she was she wouldn't ask anything .

I just pulled my t-shirt over my head and I went for her top but I just met her eyes before removing it and she turned red but eventually nodded and pulled it over her head helping me .

She was just beautiful, her breast were just perfect and she was looking so hot in her bra I looked at her again and she was biting her lover lip and was looking down .. I just pulled her chin upwards but she kept looking downwards on her hands

" Al look at me " she finally met my eyes and I gave her long kiss and said

" Al you don't know how beautiful you are . You are just perfect ." She smiled and leaned forward to kiss me . This was the first time she initiated the kiss and this brought me back to think about our marriage and I wanted to ask her something before we go any further . I kissed her lips slowly and taking all the time because I know that my question might end this but it was important before we go anywhere ahead .

After breaking the kiss she was panting and I just kissed her head and picked up my t-shirt and helped her wearing it . She looked a bit hurt and confused but she didn't question .

She started getting up from my lap but I held her wrist

" Al before we go any further with this, I wanted to ask you something and I want you to be very honest " she just nodded .

" Al did you really married me because you loved me ?" she looked at me and stared at my eyes . She looked sad and her eyes were filled with tears .
" no " she said really slowly and looked down again .

" then why did you marry me and why did Lisa had to leave that day ? Al I want to know the actual reason and trust me that whatever it is, it wouldn't change the way I feel about you but at least I should know about it . "

She didn't said a word for a long time and kept looking downwards fiddling with her hands when a tear went down her right cheek .

I wiped her cheek and kissed her as I said again
" you know you can tell me right "

She just nodded as she said ........

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