Was Never Enough

Never leave me

Alyssa : I wasn't asleep when he came back to the room . I felt something shifting in the bed besides me . He lied down looking up at the ceiling , then suddenly he turned looking towards me and I immediately closed my eyes .

He removed a strand that fell on my face because of my quick movement . He pushed it back and cupped my face as he said the words that I thought I would never listen

" I am sorry Alyssa " he said in a deep voice and I knew he felt guilty for my condition . He kept brushing his thumb on my cheek and my stomach was filled with butterflies but I needed to control my feelings . He didn't deserve my love .

If he was forced then even I was forced in this marriage . I know he never knew about it but it's not my fault that Lisa told me that very day . This was the best I could do in that case and I have tried to adjust with that situation as much as I could but I won't ever do it anymore .

I'll show him that if I can be good then I even know how to be bad . I smiled under his hand on my cheek and turned in such a way that now I was cuddled into him and his hand was draped over my waist and my back was now on his chest . But he never could have guessed that I was awake cause I had this great fake sleep ability which now came into use for the first time .

He stiffened for a while and then just pulled me more close into his back and draped his hand more to my waist as he kissed the top of my head
" good night Al "
After a while he slept and I had a great idea to take some revenge for the way he treated me so many days .

I knew two things for sure
firstly that he blamed himself for my condition and thought I was still so weak which I wasn't in reality and secondly that he was attracted towards me and got easily jealous .

And right now I can use both of them in my advantage . I just kept on planning all the stuff that I can do to irritate him and drifted to the most peaceful sleep that I ever get.

I woke up when I felt my pillow shift a bit but I held on it tightly getting irritated that I had to get up so early . The movement stopped and I felt warm again and slept for a while just like that . Then I felt some circles forming on my back and I felt the butterflies again which I felt last night. Then I looked up to find a beautiful pair of eyes looking down at me and I realised the position that I was in . I was half on top of him and half on the bed are legs were intertwined while my head lied on his chest which I thought was a pillow . His hands were still on my back and continued making circles as he kept on looking at me .

I quickly went on the other side and stood up but then remembering my plan I tried to look dizzy again . So Blake immediately came towards my side and helped me sit back .

" Alyssa your are on complete bed rest and you are just suppose to instruct me with any of your needs . Just say it. Okay " he said in a concerned voice and I knew that my plan would work easily .

He brought a glass of water and helped me even in holding the glass like I was a baby .

He just came back into the room bring my breakfast . oh breakfast on the bed is something that I always wanted to do I gave him my biggest grin and took the first bite . It was so tasty that I couldn't get enough of it .

He then went to wash the dishes and then I followed him in the kitchen just after a few minutes and opened the fridge when he said
" Alyssa why are you up so soon I asked you to tell me if you need anything "
He eyed me to sit then washed his hands leaving the dishes and gave me some pomegranate juice. I hate it and was about to puke just by it's smell but I drink half the glass . Then I spilled the rest on the floor and made it look like it was a mistake .

" oh I am really sorry Blake I know I am making you do so much of work and even making it worse because of my condition " I said with some tears in my eyes he turned and a look of sadness was all over his face he quickly washed his hands again as he cupped my cheeks removing the tears