Was Never Enough

Red peace

There are always two side of a story and we all know that but what I feel is that there is also a third side one with our conscious,  one where we debate before taking each and every step . One that knows all your truth . Your true self and that is something that scares me the most . Does it scare you too .
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Blake:
The moment their car reached to the front of a house , my heart literally sank.

I saw her going up the stairs as if she was familiar around this place and the asshole swiftly parked the car and followed behind her. I felt like my blood could explode from my veins any moment now.

My heart was beating so fast that it could be heard from miles.

All the possibilities that could take place were rushing in my head and if any one of those would be true I new I would kill him with my bare hands .

The thought of him touching her , kissing her were damaging all the nerves in my brain.

I fisted my hair in my hands pulling on them just to remove the horrible possibilities. I shut my eyes and hit the seat infront of me as if it would stop my brain from thinking such horrors.

The driver kept on shouting but I was all blank with anger.

But then Alyssa's innocent face emerged in my head. The way she looks at while I work and when I would meet her eyes she would always look away . The way she smiles  in her sleep everytime I pull her to me.

Right at that moment I could only see her eyes . Eyes that were so beautiful as the ocean , so pure and honest . I could always sense her pure heart just looking in her eyes.

Al would never in a million years cheat me . Not now not ever .

I am sure of that but still the one thing that I want able to understand was what she was doing here .

I was shaken up from my thoughts by the driver.

" excuse me sir but you have to get out or atleast tell me your destination.  My wife and children are waiting back home and I just can't help you any longer ."

I looked up at him and stared at his face . Even he has a family which looks up to his arrival.  Why only my life has to be so fucked up.

I just got out of the taxi and handed him all the cash that I had . That was the least I could do .

Then I just went on to sit on the pavement of the road , waiting for Al to return back. But each and every second passing by just made me agitated. I paced around to calm my self down . After and hour or so pacing by , I wasn't able to control myself any longer . So I headed inside. 

The door was left open so I went further in and there that bastard had his hands around my Al . My gem .

" I love you " he said and kissed her head but still I waited .

Waited for her to throw him away , push him down but she did something  I never expected .

" I love you too Zachary " and kissed him .

And then all I saw was red.

Alyssa:

I have always loved Blake. Even when we played stupid games , cycled around, even in the time when he didn't notice me, the time he use to hate me and even now when he loves me.

But I don't really know what is that just always forces us apart .

I lied to him because I didn't want to hurt him . I never want him to leave me.