Was Never Enough

Ring

Blake :

" I thought that I could love you Blake even after whatever you did but I was wrong because from this day onwards, I would always hate you and would never come in your way . I hate you Blake " she said and then she shut the door again .

I stood their just staring at the door for a while . I don't understand what I felt at that moment, may be I was hurt but why . I never liked her that way not even when we were kids or it might be so because I never thought about it . I never expected her to love me but the thought of her hating me hurts me a little . But I guess this is for the best right now.

I then went inside my room . The whole night I couldn't sleep, the thought of her hating kept coming in my head . May be I wasn't able to sleep because I never had dinner .

It was late and we didn't eat anything yet .
I cooked pasta for the both of us and I thought that I would apologise at dinner . So after I prepared everything I went to call her for dinner .
I knocked twice and asked her
" Alyssa please come and have something . It's almost 11 and I know you haven't eaten anything. Please Al come for dinner I'll be waiting "

But there was no response on her side . Maybe she doesn't even want to talk to me .

I then grabbed my plate and soon finished it . It was past mid night and she hasn't even come yet .

I went over and knocked again
"Alyssa I have kept some pasta in the fridge for you ,so grab some when you feel like " no response .

May be she is asleep , it's really late . Even I went back to my room and tried to sleep again . But the same thought came again and again but at some point later I drifted of to sleep .

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The next morning I woke up late so I hurriedly got dressed and went in the kitchen to find that she hasn't eaten her dinner . So I just made some grilled sandwiches for our breakfast .

I called for Alyssa but she never answered, she just need some time to talk to me .

I placed her breakfast very neatly and tried the last time before I leave for office .

" Alyssa I am really sorry for my behaviour last night . Please just come and have something, you didn't had anything and now I am leaving for office. I have saved my number in your phone so if you need anything do tell me ." I said before leaving .

I headed straight to office but my mind continuously wavered towards Alyssa .

She didn't even tried to make a move at me last night rather she was running away . That's really strange as she confessed that she was so in love with me, so much so that she forced her sister to leave the aisle . From the day of our marriage till today, she never claimed her love nor did she tried to flirt even for a second. She didn't even try to impress me .

Maybe there is something she is hiding from me or maybe she is just playing hard to get .

After a lot of debate I called her but she didn't answered . Okay so if she can ignore me then even I can .

I went for another meeting . But sadly I couldn't control my anxiety. What if something happened to her or what if she left me already, she doesn't even know anybody around here. I constantly checked my phone but she never called . So I excused myself and called her again but she didn't pick up .

I called for Cole, he was one of the most trusted employ and my dearest friend . I asked him to call Alyssa continuously till the time she finally picks up and when she does give it to me immediately. He eyed me for a while checking if I was serious but when he earned no reaction from me he nodded and continued with the task .