All For You ♡reddie♡

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     "of course." beverley reassured her friend. eddie stood up from his spot on the bed and walked over to his desk. bev stepped back, giving eddie the space he needed. he dug through his book bag that still sat on his desk. he pulled out his notebook and flipped through the pages until he reached the page that had his entry. he handed it to bev and she began reading. eddie sat down on his desk chair as she went and sat on the bed. eddie sat anxiously, thinking about how embarrassing this whole situation had been.
"hey eds, can I be honest?" bev asked as she set the note book down beside her. "yeah." "if you kinda put the pieces together...it kinda looks like...you are gay." bev spoke. "well I mean if I am...then it would explain a lot." "yeah I guess so, and I have a few more questions..." bev added. eddie confirmed that he was up to responding to them, and she began.
"do you have feelings for richie, like strong feelings?"
eddie swallowed hard, but didn't see the point in lying, "sometimes.."
"sometimes...or every time you're around him and think of him?"
"...fine... I think about him all the time, and I guess I do have strong feelings for him." eddie confessed, slouching in the chair.
"okay...have you ever been nervous around him?"
"yes.."
"is that why you don't hang out with the losers?are you too nervous to be around richie while you're with other people?"
"a little, I don't want someone tormenting me and asking my why I'm always looking at richie..."
"if anyone's gonna torment you it's gonna be richie himself." bev responded making eddie giggle.
"anyways...have you always had strong feelings towards richie?"
"not necessarily, I mean he's been my best friend since day one, so we've always had a strong connection, but all the sudden I went through this little phase thing, and I developed feelings for him I guess.."
"have you felt more attracted towards males or females during your life?"
"...I....im really not sure. I wasn't really attracted to anyone growing up, I just usually stuck around with richie, who talked mostly about girls, and I didn't really pay attention."
"well...overall...do you think your a homosexual?" bev questioned finally. eddie took a deep breath and thought about it for a long time. bev patiently waited, understanding that it was a hard question to answer. "uhm... it would make sense...so...sure."
"well just because it sounds right doesn't mean it is right. do you feel more attracted to masculinity, or femininity?"
"well if I'm attracted to richie, then obviously masculinity."
"so you're saying-"
"yes I'm saying I'm gay, there I said it...I'm gay." eddie confirmed with a sea of emotions.
     bev got up from her spot and walked over to eddie, holding her arms out for a hug. eddie stood up from his chair and hugged bev back, hot tears streamed down his face as he held her. "doesn't it feel better to let go.." beverley commented as she rubbed her friends back. "thank you so much bev, your a life saver...seriously. I haven't been this happy in a long time." eddie whispered between sobs. "but your crying.." bev noted, pulling back a bit to observe her friend. "they're tears of joy.." eddie replied, whipping them off his cheek with his sleeve.
     eddie had finally calmed down and was the happiest, and most exhausted boy on the planet. bev had gathered her things and started to leave, but eddie remembered something. "bev, I have one more thing." bev turned around and grinned, ready to help. eddie started giggling and pulled the nail polish out of his pocket. "that's what that was? I thought it was..." bev swallowed hard, shaking the thought from her mind. "jesus christ bev...anyways, come here." eddie replied, motioning for her to come over to his desk. eddie sat down in his chair and set the nail polish down, bev stepped over beside him and leaned up against the the desk. "could you paint my nails?" eddie giggled. "seriously?" bev asked with an enthusiastic expression. "yeah." eddie confirmed. bev clapped her hands in excitement and grabbed the bottle to begin. "this is a really nice pink, it's like an icy pink." bev complimented as she smacked the bottle up against her hand, mixing the paint together. "I grabbed the first one I saw, my mom has a collection of pinks downstairs. She paints her nails every week, sometime twice a week. When I come home from school she asks me how my day went, and sometimes she would be painting her nails, and I just thought it was soothing to watch." eddie elaborated as bev began to paint his own nails. "it is pretty cool to watch. I don't have any girlfriends, so I only get to paint my nails, and it's nice to finally have someone else's nails to do." bev conveyed finishing eddie's left hand. she pulled his other hand up to the desk to paint as eddie admired his other. "I always wondered what it would look like, I kinda like it, what do you think?" "well, you have very feminine hands, so it compliments them very well, it suits you." bev voiced honestly. eddie smiled and watched how the paint sparkled in the moonlight. "hey bev, before you finish, can I try?" eddie wondered, hoping it would turn out half decent. "absolutely." she confirmed handing eddie the brush part. he swiped it across his nails, all but effortlessly, shocking bev. "you're a natural!" bev complimented making eddie giggle. "okay, now don't touch anything for like the next five minutes, or it'll mess them up. I have to go now eds, the sun is coming up and my dad is gonna wonder we're ive been. and if you ever need someone to talk to, or want someone to paint your nails, just call me."