anathema//spam book

sup (***tw: mentions mental health shit and self harm***)

1) to the people who've voted on this spam book, thank you so much, it means a lot to me

2) i have given my dad permission to work at my high school and now he's gonna be teaching 10th grade, which i'm excited for because it means if i don't have a lunch period with any of my friends i can hide in his room

3) i have a crush on a guy and he's cute except i don't think he likes me and indigo says i should go for it and flirt with him but like i'm terrified of rejection so i'm probably not gonna.

4) i'm going camping in cape cod really soon and i'm super excited cos i get to see my family and we go to p-town and it's so gay and i love it and this is my first year being out to my mom and dad while going to the cape and so im gonna buy a ton of gay shit

5) i wrote a song and preformed it at the camp where i met cute boy from number 3 and he said he likes my voice and agh i'm bad with compliments from regular people but compliments from really cute people? i just kinda shut down lol. but i might post that if anyone wants to see it (but i think my voice is bad so probably not haha)

6) i went to see hamilton like a month ago and i forgot to post that here but it was amazing and i almost cried

7) our summer reading book mentions in detail self-harm and its about a girl who's been sexually assaulted so the school is gonna give us alternates which is good cos i don't know what would've happened if i read that

8) my mental health has kinda been all over the place but mostly down and i've been relapsing a lot recently and blueberry is annoyed at me for not wanting to tell my mom or my therapist that i'm not doing very well

9) i've gone through 3 pairs of earbuds in the past two weeks wtf is wrong with me

10) idk i just wanted to end on ten lol

that's all for now

stay chill and stay safe lovelies