anathema//spam book

i'm stupid

hi, so here's the update about school. i'm gonna start with the bad stuff first that way i can end on a kinda pleasant note.

the bad:

- my name hasn't been changed in the school system because my parents think be being trans is "just a phase" and so that sucks.

- i get birthnamed in the halls constantly and i'm too awkward to correct people cos i feel bad.

- the school is really fucking big and i keep getting lost (this isn't really bad, it's just annoying)

bittersweet: 

my dad works at my school, which is bad, cos he doesn't like the fact that i don't use my birthname, but he's my dad and i enjoy seeing him everyday. (plus i get a ride home in the afternoon)

the good:

- all of my teachers have been calling me by my chosen name and that honestly makes me feel so much happier.

- i have lunch with blueberry and a few other friends

- i don't have any assholes from middle school in my class

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there's one more thing that doesn't really fall into any of the categories, but like i said yesterday, i'm really fuckin sick. and i did a stupid thing today even though i'm sick, which was wearing my binder. and now everything hurts and i can't even breathe well even though i took it off. so yeah that's fun.

anyways, that's all for now.

stay chill and stay safe lovelies